05-16-2012, 07:34 AM
As I examine my life, my personal interests and goals I've realized something. I'm going to disappoint people in the next few years. I have to admit, that kind of bothers me a little. Those people closest to you may try to talk you out of it. Not necessarily because they are mean, but because they have in mind what they think would really work for you in life. For example, everybody has the perfect woman for me which is great and so thoughtful, except I'm really not that into women. I'm not brave enough right now to say "I'm really interested in men right now so I don't think she would work." LOL! Another thing is school. There is a certain program I want from a school that I would like to attend. However tuition is high, but I could get in if I worked at it. I would have to take out loans and they offer partial scholarships. Yet when I tell people this stuff they adamantly suggest another school that is cheaper and it makes since what they are saying. I just do want to do what they suggest because I want what I want. Sometimes I feel so dumb because I don't think "logically". I sometimes think "What if they end up being right and I was wrong and I look stupid when things don't work out. Maybe I just don't see things clear enough. Yeah, she might the perfect one for me, but I'm not interested in her. Sure the other school is cheaper, but I've wanted to attend the school that I like. Anybody experience something like this? How do you cope with this?