Do you thinking it fair

[Heron]

Hello forums ..
This is the first writing of me here ,and maybe i have mistakes in my gramer or words , i try to explain my story.
I am born gay and hiding that long time , no one knows this , i know its hard to hide that but i have to , anyway i met guys out of my country when i have vactions and i had nice time with them .
But my broplem do u thing its fair to keep that hiding untill to die , i am almose 30 old in aug 17 so i heard all the time from my parents when u marriy .
I need to see my life i need to have partner but that it not allowed in my country and if they know about me , they'll put me in jail or kill me , i am tired of that my soul hurt me , i cant chang my emotion or my feeling .
I am human .
Please guys i need sulotion of my problem .

[Heron]

I have mistake work ( porn) i mean born

[East]

Heron...I am so sorry that you have to live like that and hide who you are..it is certainly not fair at all. The only suggestion I have is that you move to another country where you can be a bit more free to be who you are without the fear of violence or death.

[Bowyn Aerrow]

No it is not fair.

It is absolutely horrible that in the 21st century humanity is still so petty and savage as to elect to ostracize, beat, kill, imprison LGBT - or for that matter make war, maintain poverty, starvation, keep the resources of the planet lopsidedly owned by a minority while the majority go without.

I fear there is but one solution to the problems of humanity, and that is to wipe out humanity.... Yes a sort of 'final solution' kind of solution but no religion, no amount of 'good will' appears to get humanity past its petty violence and small talent for war and hatred.

As for your personal issues, you may try to flee to someplace where you can be more free - but there is always losses when you do such.

I fear there is no way you can change the personalities and character of your oppressors.

[dfiant]

It's not fair and it is hard to imagine what you must be going through.

It sounds like you are damned if you do and damned if you don't and forced to chose the lesser of 2 evils so to speak.

If I was you I would be looking at making one of those 'vacations' permanent and put yourself in a place that is less repressive and allows you to be yourself.

I know it would be hard leaving family behind, but then in your own words if your family knew the truth about you they would put you in jail or kill you.

You need to do what makes you feel safe and brings you joy to your life

[Heron]

I know guys it is hard , my life its dark , and if i want move some where els , how can i do that ( its illgel )
I have been in usa and eropan for vacation , and some time i think to call Human Rights Organization , but i think they cannot do anything to my country .
Really i feel mad .
God born me gay and i need to be with man

[pellaz]

first off dont worry about your English grammar, your best effort is way beyond what people and my self post here.

the Catholic Church was celebrate all through their history. Every wonder why? It was a haven for the gay and lesbian. More modern times the church has even become homophobic.

There is always at least 2-8% gay men in the population. You need to find them. You will have to be creative in structuring you life but "family" (other gay's) exist.

[Nick9]

Hi, I am sorry your situation is so hard for you. Do you think you could find a job on another country? It doesn't need to be Europe or America, maybe some country near Saudi Arabia would work too?
I've heard that Beirut, Lebanon, is a bit more free minded than Saudi Arabia?

I've heard that it is difficult for foreigners to work in your country (a lot of permissions is needed). Is it difficult for you to work in another country?

[Sylph]

Aww

It really is quite unfair that you have to be in that predicament.

It seems the Middle East & The Carribean nations are somewhat in the same boat in regards to the LGBT, although I will say my country in particular is the most open-minded and accepting in regards to LGBT of all the other Carribean countries.

I know in Jamaica, if your found to be gay, you can be beaten and in some cases killed. Some Carribean islands have laws in opposition to homosexuality, although mostly in regards to public displays of affection and what not. And none of us have yet to even make steps towards legalizing Gay marriage/partnership, so.

This is why I'll probably be leaving at some point in my life, so that I may find a partner and eventually marry him, because it seems we're not getting close to allowing Gay marriage in the Carribean, atleast not here.

So I can see where you're coming from somewhat, although your situation seems to be consiberably worse, but I would say, like the other's before me have said, take a permanent "vacation". mile:

I know it'll be hard to leave your culture behind, your way of life, but wouldn't you rather be alive to carry those on with your new freedom, rather than killed or imprisoned by the same culture of which you grew up in and probably love so much?

It is not worth it in the long run to fester and be upset, when you can try to make it better for yourself and get a move on. You've only got one life and you should be able to actually live it.

Perhaps if you find a job like Nicky suggested, that should grant you some sort of way to leave your country hopefully for a long while, if not permantly.

I know some companies hire foreign workers if their skills are what they're looking for. Like if a company is looking for a competent Computer Technician, but there aren't any in the area, they may look for someone outside the country/state.

This is especially true for schools I've noticed. I've had many Canadian teachers, and some Jamaican ones, along with our native Bermudian ones.

I hope it works out for you. I seriously think you should take time though, to weigh your pros and cons, even though you think at the moment, things are unfair[which they are]. It's best to have a plan and pros and cons[goods and bads] will help you.

I.E -

Leaving Saudi Arabia;

Good | Bad
> Won't be imprisoned/killed | > Would be leaving your home
> Can live your life freely | > It may be hard adapting to a new life


Things like this is what you should think about and weigh, to see what you really want and then what steps you can take next to make what you want a reality.

Good luck! And let us know what you decide to do!

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[By the way, Welcome ]

[Heron]

Guys i dont care where i have to move i need place they can accpet gay people
And i thing midde eastren its not good for gay and if i move to lebenon i get problem
I dont care what i keep behaind me i need to be with man
And i can move to some where but i can find work there
Really guys i had time very bad , i will cry