06-26-2012, 09:22 PM
Hi,
so I have been off-and-on dealing with this for the last two years. I'm 20, and I consider myself straight.
When I was around 17, I got kind curious and started looking at pics online. Eventually, I had a sexual encounter with someone I met online, and I've done it two times since. I haven't really had much of an urge to since the last time though, which was about 9 or 10 months ago.
The reason why I question it, is that I sometimes have trouble getting it up with girls. I have trouble believing that its ED considering that I'm 20, but the more I read online about it, the more I think that it's just performance anxiety.
I have trouble believing that I'm gay though, for one pretty big reason. I'm not attracted to men. I've never had a crush on a guy or 'liked' a guy, ever. It's never even really gone beyond me being able to tell that a guy is attractive or not. I do like the penis though, and I did enjoy being a bottom in anal sex. I do feel like it's pretty important to mention that I enjoy sex with women too, I just keep having this erection problem. But then again, I haven't really had that much sex with men, and I very well could get it with them, too.
So where I sit right now is that I'm not gay. I think that maybe I just like the idea of gay sex because it's exciting and taboo in my world. I've thought long and hard on whether or not I'm just trying to convince myself of that or not, and I think that it actually is true.
But I would really appreciate input from you guys.
Thanks.
so I have been off-and-on dealing with this for the last two years. I'm 20, and I consider myself straight.
When I was around 17, I got kind curious and started looking at pics online. Eventually, I had a sexual encounter with someone I met online, and I've done it two times since. I haven't really had much of an urge to since the last time though, which was about 9 or 10 months ago.
The reason why I question it, is that I sometimes have trouble getting it up with girls. I have trouble believing that its ED considering that I'm 20, but the more I read online about it, the more I think that it's just performance anxiety.
I have trouble believing that I'm gay though, for one pretty big reason. I'm not attracted to men. I've never had a crush on a guy or 'liked' a guy, ever. It's never even really gone beyond me being able to tell that a guy is attractive or not. I do like the penis though, and I did enjoy being a bottom in anal sex. I do feel like it's pretty important to mention that I enjoy sex with women too, I just keep having this erection problem. But then again, I haven't really had that much sex with men, and I very well could get it with them, too.
So where I sit right now is that I'm not gay. I think that maybe I just like the idea of gay sex because it's exciting and taboo in my world. I've thought long and hard on whether or not I'm just trying to convince myself of that or not, and I think that it actually is true.
But I would really appreciate input from you guys.
Thanks.