12-05-2012, 05:07 AM
Hello all!!! Well my fourth occurance just happened last Saturday night. It only has happened when I drink. The first couple times weren't bad so I just blew it off but it has gotten worse. Basically it feels sorta like a dream, I feel my body heat up a lot, almost a feeling of a fire inside the room and I'm trapped. I feel as though I don't escape, I might suffocate. Then I wake up in another room and realize whats going on and catch my breath. Then back off to sleep. Crazy right? Well last Saturday night I was on Vacation with my parents and they were asleep in the hotel room and I arrived back after a night on bourbon in New Orleans. I was a little drunk but remember everything up until falling asleep. My parent told me the next morning that right after I went to sleep, I jumped out of bed breathing very heavy and yelling about something and having a loud arguement about something that never occured and very random. Then I punched the wall several times and then cooled off and went back to bed. I remember nothing of this. And now I am very scared. I am in the closet still but have been getting prepared to come out. I think maybe holding in all these emotions, feelings, secrets, regrets, and sorrows is stressing me out to a point that when I drink maybe my body is acting out. I don't know. Maybe one has nothing to do with the other, but I would like some input. Sorry for the long story just didn't want to leave anything out and believe it or not I shortened the story lol. Thanks