03-12-2013, 04:02 AM
I have a huge crush on this guy at work, but I'm afraid I'm coming off as a stuck up. The first time I saw him, I was like, hmmm...his kind of cute. Then I met him and shook his hand, and my heart skipped a bit. If there is such as thing as love at first hand shake, I might have fallen in love. He is really nice, soft spoken, down to earth kind of guy. He has thick long black eye lashes and a great gentle smile that melts my heart. But like all other people I like, I get so nervous whenever he is around. When he is in the same room with me, I lose my ability to speak. I get so conscious about every single thing I make. Even when I get up to walk I feel like I am swaying my arms back and forth forcefully.
Why can't I just say hi, or good morning, or how was your day? Is it so hard to say those words? But like I said, I do want to say those words, but I get joked up. And now I feel like I am being a stuck up for not talking to him.
The fact is, I don't even know if he is gay or not? He probably doesn't if I'm gay or not too? No one at work know...I think!...but whatever, I just want to be able to say something to him just as a normal person would.
Why can't I just say hi, or good morning, or how was your day? Is it so hard to say those words? But like I said, I do want to say those words, but I get joked up. And now I feel like I am being a stuck up for not talking to him.
The fact is, I don't even know if he is gay or not? He probably doesn't if I'm gay or not too? No one at work know...I think!...but whatever, I just want to be able to say something to him just as a normal person would.