06-30-2013, 03:40 AM
"How fucking old are we!?!", that's what I am thinking when we are doing all this fighting.
You keep mocking me, making faces and repeating what I have said in a high shrill voice.
Your face purple, with the white spit building up on the sides of your lips.
"I love you so much, I want us to both be happy!", I keep saying over and over again.
I've been watching you all day, hyper and agitated...restless....and angry.
It wil happen tonight. Will I be on the street tonight...who ever knows.
I try so hard to head it off. To say nice things. Soften the blow.
It doesnt matter in the long run, it never does, you are expert a starting a fight.
No one likes a WhINer, and you are Such a better person than I am...you just Have to show it.
You and your self control. You'll Never hit...me just push me with your Breath so close....
To my Face? Get Back! Please! I'm Begging You! Just Leave Me Alone! I Love You Please Stop!
Then you detach your....humanity. Like ice, except ice is emotionless and You are All Emote.
You aren't Complete with out The battle. A warrior outside his time. Raping and Pillaging.
If only there were a fucking Trophy. Well..., a trophy besides me. That's all I'm good for.
That and cooking for you. Cleaning up after you. Listening to you brag. I have purpose.
It's all my fault, in my head. You aremNever wrong. Never Wrong! I'm a Fucking Idiot!
I make things up. It's all imaginary. He is never unkind or mean, it is all how I'm never happy.
Never Happy. So. I. Twist. It.
Twist it....
I twist Everything. For No Reason At All.....except 'cause me wanting to start a Fight.
I benefit So Much from All These Fights. That's why I Start them.
And we Frown on Inapproiate Behavior, so I Get What I Deserve Making You Mad.
Rules are rules. Ignorance of the Law is no Excuse. Ever.
No Person Knows what we Each go through. No Person Can Judge, except for....
People who Judge. If you are telling me what I should do...smugly certain that you are right...
I am Wrong. You remind me So Much of HIM.
You keep mocking me, making faces and repeating what I have said in a high shrill voice.
Your face purple, with the white spit building up on the sides of your lips.
"I love you so much, I want us to both be happy!", I keep saying over and over again.
I've been watching you all day, hyper and agitated...restless....and angry.
It wil happen tonight. Will I be on the street tonight...who ever knows.
I try so hard to head it off. To say nice things. Soften the blow.
It doesnt matter in the long run, it never does, you are expert a starting a fight.
No one likes a WhINer, and you are Such a better person than I am...you just Have to show it.
You and your self control. You'll Never hit...me just push me with your Breath so close....
To my Face? Get Back! Please! I'm Begging You! Just Leave Me Alone! I Love You Please Stop!
Then you detach your....humanity. Like ice, except ice is emotionless and You are All Emote.
You aren't Complete with out The battle. A warrior outside his time. Raping and Pillaging.
If only there were a fucking Trophy. Well..., a trophy besides me. That's all I'm good for.
That and cooking for you. Cleaning up after you. Listening to you brag. I have purpose.
It's all my fault, in my head. You aremNever wrong. Never Wrong! I'm a Fucking Idiot!
I make things up. It's all imaginary. He is never unkind or mean, it is all how I'm never happy.
Never Happy. So. I. Twist. It.
Twist it....
I twist Everything. For No Reason At All.....except 'cause me wanting to start a Fight.
I benefit So Much from All These Fights. That's why I Start them.
And we Frown on Inapproiate Behavior, so I Get What I Deserve Making You Mad.
Rules are rules. Ignorance of the Law is no Excuse. Ever.
No Person Knows what we Each go through. No Person Can Judge, except for....
People who Judge. If you are telling me what I should do...smugly certain that you are right...
I am Wrong. You remind me So Much of HIM.