07-13-2013, 01:51 AM
I know there isn't much I can do in this situation and but it's deeply bothering me, and I feel rather... powerless?
First off when I was a kid my mom raised me christian, and it was baptist the church we went to was VERY homophobic, the paster was homophobic, and she'd even have us watch sermons where the entire thing was based off of how gays are evil, disgusting and will "Ruin this country." I bought into the whole thing since I was a kid, and at that time you just listen and become a tape recorder set on repeat and don't think for yourself, after all of this when I was about 12? I left the church, mainly because I knew I was gay, and the religion in general was so hateful towards me, It literally was the one place I would fear going to, because I was always the outcast and other kids would bully me. So... when I was 13 I didn't have to go anymore, the part that worries me is I have two younger siblings that I care about A LOT. The thing is, she's raising them in the same environment, so... I'm afraid the outcome will be similar, only the thing that sparked me to leave the church was knowing they were always against me, they never liked me, and it was mainly because I was gay and had always shown those signs of being gay (without even realizing it). I'm just fearful that my siblings are going to be homophobic just like I was, because of their environment, I've had this conversation with my mom and she told me "This isn't your decision. I choose to have them raised this way." and I agree, It's just, I don't know this worries me? :/
Any advice?
First off when I was a kid my mom raised me christian, and it was baptist the church we went to was VERY homophobic, the paster was homophobic, and she'd even have us watch sermons where the entire thing was based off of how gays are evil, disgusting and will "Ruin this country." I bought into the whole thing since I was a kid, and at that time you just listen and become a tape recorder set on repeat and don't think for yourself, after all of this when I was about 12? I left the church, mainly because I knew I was gay, and the religion in general was so hateful towards me, It literally was the one place I would fear going to, because I was always the outcast and other kids would bully me. So... when I was 13 I didn't have to go anymore, the part that worries me is I have two younger siblings that I care about A LOT. The thing is, she's raising them in the same environment, so... I'm afraid the outcome will be similar, only the thing that sparked me to leave the church was knowing they were always against me, they never liked me, and it was mainly because I was gay and had always shown those signs of being gay (without even realizing it). I'm just fearful that my siblings are going to be homophobic just like I was, because of their environment, I've had this conversation with my mom and she told me "This isn't your decision. I choose to have them raised this way." and I agree, It's just, I don't know this worries me? :/
Any advice?