Legally, financially and materially we are still kinda, sorta connected. Until the waiting period is over for the State when it comes to the Domestic Partnership we are still 'Domestic Partners'. He still has me as his beneficiary on his insurance policies. So His death is financially a boon to me....
Other interesting stuff for instance he is my advocate in medical stuff since I have no one else to hand over such powers too (Mother is dead, father don't care - my gal-pal moved way hella up north.... meh). I guess I could just burn the Advanced Health Care directives and allow perfect strangers to decide if I stay on a machine or not.... IDK.
While I signed and filed the dissolution of Domestic Partnership, he refused to sign. I fear if I push he may take that up to the next level and contest the Dissolution - that will make it a far messier thing. Then comes the opportunity to sue for palimony and other interesting crap.
Financially, I have successfully managed to separate all of the bills and crap. We were way too entangled. Thankfully I don't do debt, I don't like borrowing (nor loaning) thus my 'shit' wasn't too bad and there were enough clear lines there to separate his 'shit' from mine... relatively easily.
As for not having a job - the unemployment percentage is still above 12.5% around these parts. I have looked at the job scene and I know his skill-set - there is a good 'logical' reason for his still being out of work.
But there is also the small fact that he is 47 - it is even harder for a guy nearly 50 to get one of these low paying type jobs which are predominately handed to 20-something year olds who are just starting their lives.
Considering that the Fed is still extending unemployment checks for people, I have to believe that there is a minor economic problem that may stymie his ability to get a job in 'reasonable' short order.
So there are 'good' solid reasons for him to have difficulty in finding a job. Be that as it may, I am not fully certain where the line between 'there are no jobs' and 'plain laziness' is since that is pretty blurry.
14 years of being with someone is not something that is readily ended. I know him too well and I know that like me he has 'issues'. He had a Career until the economy up and busted. That took a severe toll on his emotional well being. He has depression (perhaps a lot worse than he knows).
My posts may not come off as such, but I'm a very patient man (too patient at times). Considering how well past relationships went and how terribly they ended, this 14 year relationship was, in contrast, a damn good one. This breaking up 'nicely' thing is brand new territory for me.
In past relationships I have always been the one to do the final giving - basically packing a duffel bag of clothes and leaving everything else behind. I came very close to doing that in this situation... That didn't end well.
Then there is the material aspect here. The Refrigerator is 'ours' the stove is 'ours' the TV is 'ours' - a whole hella of the stuff that we gathered over the last 14 years is 'ours' and not readily divided into 'yours and mine'.
Now I do have a chain saw and have seriously considered dividing everything equally.....
Um no, selling everything and dividing the money won't work - I
need a stove, an Icebox and a few other things - dividing the money does not open the door to replacing items such as these. I had kinda hoped he would get an apartment (partially furnished) and leave the stove, icebox, and other crap here.
The only clear thing here is that this place is mine because it is also my job. This has been my job for 16 years, I was the property caretaker for 15 years and change, now I am also the personal caretaker of the landlord/boss man. I was here before I met Dan, he moved in with me.
The 'temporary' arraignment was for him to continue being my roommate until he got a job and got his stuff situated. I honestly do not know where that "temporary" line should be drawn.
On one level I still hold a little love for him - Well I think that the reason why I don't slip rat poison into his meals is because I still have a little love for him..... I could be wrong.
All in all, considering my whole life as a frame of reference, those 14.5 years were not at all bad. Its not like we beat on each other, screamed and hollered or had 'serious' issues all the time. Even the couple's counselors we went to said that we had a relatively healthy and content relationship and that we were doing a lot of things 'right'.
Balancing out the good against the bad and being a gentleman here is sorta hard to do.