[COLOR="Blue"]As opposed to Mister Tinkles, I've always felt an aversion and uncomfortable aura around men, but this could be perhaps because of where I am from and all that blah blah and the culture, or even my sort of below average production level of testosterone, but gurl that's another story.
But despite all that, Men in general never made me feel comfortable, like I always felt nervous, didn't know what to say, almost as if we had totally nothing in common, despite me being a male as well, hence the many girl friends that I've had, and I've only had 2 or 3 serious male friends.
It took me a long while to get comfortable in my skin around men, and not until my 2nd and 3rd year in high school did I REALLY get comfortable lol, so much so as to start being boyfriends with a friend of mine who I befriended in our first year.
It was tumultuous towards the end, but it helped to strengthen my resolve around men and to solidify what I already figured was attraction to men, but also I suppose a mistrust or apprehensiveness towards them.
I'm not sure if this is what Females go through mentally before getting with a guy or whatever, but I definitely didn't feel as vocal and assertive back then with guys as I am now.
I've always been vocal and flamboyant, but when a guy would enter, especially one I didn't know, I'd go on mute.
This could go back to my whole culture thing, but even still, talking to guys was just weird in general.
Because I found more a kindred spirit and relation to girls then boys.
So in that sense I guess you can say I've always been gay, which I do believe and that's why.
To me, girls don't seem sexually attractive, cause they're like my sisters kinda. Like when I see a girl, I'm like "Hey gurl", but now, not back then, I find myself able to approach men more easily without much apprehension behind it, but it's definitely not how 2 guys would greet or talk to each other.
I've always liked men, but I suppose in a way, I didn't see myself as one, so growing up I always wondered how girls feel? Because I know I'm male, but my mind/emotions tends to understand and side with girls more, so I'm like both.
Anywho ^.^ That's me sis, I'm just an Androgyne, and that's okay, because haters can kiss my Feminine ass
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