im tire i dont know what to do anymore

[anthony361]

i dont know what to do anymore im getting tire my friend well his straight he has a girl and he has had sex with many other girls. is going to 3 years and no one knows my friends and his family know im gay but they dont know we done things. its always the same thing we hang out and he sleeps over in my home he lets me suck his dick and some times he does me with condom but i notice he realy does not like to do this so i think and is it normal for him to bust a nut in 1 to max 3 min when i suck his thing he takes long and then theirs times he cums fast and thiers times it really gets super hard and times it does not thiers time when he does me that its really hard but theirs times he says he is going to do me and wile i suck it get hard but when he is going to put in my ass it goes to sleep that what makes me belive he does not like that. and i ask him to show me love that he cares about me. he says im just hooking you up i dont mind giving some i dont care just never tell anyone i like but their is not love i ask for it but not ones has he gave me a kiss he has said he does love over the phone but never does show me i know in public i have to act like a friend and when he sleeps over i try to hugh him and when i get to close he moves and kind pushes me away. he would do me ones and i would probaly suck his dick 3 time over the night he just wakes me up and pulls it out so i can give him head and he is good looking is just the girl he realy loves is always playing him their always breaking up she uses him gets what she wants then she wont look for him or she will plain ignore him till the next time i know he realy loves her but what about me can it happen bettew us and im scared of how he would react if i give him a kiss wile he is sleep should i do it i want more than sex i want love and please help me on what i should do

[Bowyn Aerrow]

Dump this cretin and find a real man, one who can love you and be all that you deserve.

This guy is just using you as a cum bucket, and most likely has HIV or something that he infecting you with or some other horrible thing along those lines.

He does not LOVE you, he is using you - that ain't love. That is hate.

[southbiochem]

the last line says it all...

you are looking for love...and you are not going to find in in this guy..

you may believe you will because you are infatuated with him..you won't

it's bad enough he has a girl and messing around with you on the side..

as much as I hate those words you truly are a "cum bucket" in his eyes like Bowyn said

you deserve much more and better than that..

It may be difficult, but you need to end that.....whatever it is you have..

there will be more than one guy out there up to the task of giving you the love and care you deserve

[Counselor]

He has been honest with you, he told you it was just a hook up. You wanted more, and you haven't been honest with him. End your encounters with him, take control of yourself again.

[philsguy95]

It seems he's made his feelings and intentions clear, as have you, and they don't match up. It's painful, but simple: you love, he doesn't, and even if he does, he's in no emotional or psychological position to show it and be committed to you, so kick him to the curb and end it.