02-10-2014, 10:20 PM
MisterLove Wrote:I'm terrified of NDE's and death.
I'm a good person but somehow I believe I'm going to end up in hell.
That's probably the Catholic upbringing.
And I've found you confusing for awhile in that you say things how one has to have religion to know right from wrong, you can't make your own rules, and yet you have your own self-defined values which you show by describing casual hookups that the Catholic church would frown upon even if they were with women, let alone them being men and say you're a good person though the church disagrees. If you need the Catholic church to tell you how to be moral then how are you having sex with people at saunas and on beaches? Do you confess these "sins"? If not, I could definitely see why you'd be scared. If the Catholic church was speaking the truth then you should be.
I'd suggest finding another religion that's more gay friendly yet with all the vids you post of demons, even Harry Potter being evil, I suppose you'd think Hell would swallow you up if you did.
All I can say is I feel I dodged a bullet in being raised in the East Texas Bible Belt yet without being convinced gay-hating Christianity is truth (and thus fearing what you fear and worse, feelings that have driven at least some gays to self-hatred, despair, and suicide).