02-20-2014, 07:12 PM
Hi all,
I'm gonna keep this short as possible....
Been together nearly 4 years, been on holidays, lived together 2 and half years, have a gorgeous cat together.... But I'm just not happy anymore. I've felt like this since around September and always put it off and things kept coming up like a holiday end of sept, Xmas, birthdays etc. We recently had a pretty big fight and the whole "we're over, move out" thing came around but I couldn't go through with it. This fight wasn't just a shouting match, I actually initiated it but pushing him (can't explain why other than built up stress/upset/anger) which then became something more... Then he slapped me. Nothing other than a red mark, but I still stayed knowing how unhappy I am. I think being only 22 and all this is too much for me at a young age and feel I'm not going to be able to fully live my youthful years if I'm in a relationship. I never experienced the whole experimenting with different guys like he did, I was always I'm serious relationships (1 before him for almost 2 years). I think that's what I'm missing... Is that bad? Wanting 'fresh meat' so to speak? I have recently been sending & receiving nude pics to a guy... I know this is wrong but I feel this is the attention I have craved. I feel like I want to be single, get my life on track, experiment, have more fun... But then I think about what I have got and achieved with my boyfriend and don't want to loose that! I know he'd be devastated (as would I).
Another thing to mention, we are rarely intimate, when we are I pleasure him and I don't think we've had full on intercourse for like 3/4 months!! He feels uncomfortable with himself due to his weight and also suffers from bulimia which I think is another factor to this which I don't feel I'm strong enough to handle anymore...
Anyone have any ideas or advice or been in a similar situation?? Thank you!
I'm gonna keep this short as possible....
Been together nearly 4 years, been on holidays, lived together 2 and half years, have a gorgeous cat together.... But I'm just not happy anymore. I've felt like this since around September and always put it off and things kept coming up like a holiday end of sept, Xmas, birthdays etc. We recently had a pretty big fight and the whole "we're over, move out" thing came around but I couldn't go through with it. This fight wasn't just a shouting match, I actually initiated it but pushing him (can't explain why other than built up stress/upset/anger) which then became something more... Then he slapped me. Nothing other than a red mark, but I still stayed knowing how unhappy I am. I think being only 22 and all this is too much for me at a young age and feel I'm not going to be able to fully live my youthful years if I'm in a relationship. I never experienced the whole experimenting with different guys like he did, I was always I'm serious relationships (1 before him for almost 2 years). I think that's what I'm missing... Is that bad? Wanting 'fresh meat' so to speak? I have recently been sending & receiving nude pics to a guy... I know this is wrong but I feel this is the attention I have craved. I feel like I want to be single, get my life on track, experiment, have more fun... But then I think about what I have got and achieved with my boyfriend and don't want to loose that! I know he'd be devastated (as would I).
Another thing to mention, we are rarely intimate, when we are I pleasure him and I don't think we've had full on intercourse for like 3/4 months!! He feels uncomfortable with himself due to his weight and also suffers from bulimia which I think is another factor to this which I don't feel I'm strong enough to handle anymore...
Anyone have any ideas or advice or been in a similar situation?? Thank you!