Life has changed greatly for me...
12-19-2014, 02:27 AM
Wow, so I haven't made a new thread in a while, and a lot has happened in the last 12 weeks of my new life...
So my sexual exploration began with my visit to a gay bondage club. I still go every week and it's just as fun, if not more, then the first time I went.
I started as a bottom only (submissive) and in the last few weeks have been topping (dom) as well assisting the other 2 tops I've developed relationships with.
By the third week of going to this club I knew for sure that I was gay when I developed a little crush on a guy I play with.
For the last 8 weeks my entire gay part of my life began and ended within the walls of this club. Although the scenes and things that take place are part of sexual play, I was not sexually active with anyone during this time.
I knew I needed to branch out, that I needed more and that I needed to have something that existed outside and unconnected to the club. I didn't want so much weight put on the club and the people I befriended there.
Within the last few weeks I began using a hook up app which allowed me to connect with other gay people in my area. Until this point, I knew of no one around me that was gay. It was a game changer.
As I finally had a new avenue to peruse my interests things at the club began to change as well. The scenes I was a part of took a more sexual turn. Usually edging, hand jobs, was as far as most scenes went. But oral play began to become a more common thing.
It began with my bondage buddy having a sub give him oral while we played with the guy. It was hot as hell. While he got oral from the sub, I gave it to the sub. A first for me, not just here, anywhere.
The next 2 weeks I also got oral from the subs I played with. It was really hot. (not to completion, it's more about the scene then the person, me)
I also had sex for the first time from a hot guy I met from the app. It was nothing special, the guy was really hot but a bit weird. Still, I got what I wanted out of the experience. I believe the term he used was flipping, lol.
I went on a few dates as well. One of them ending in fun, the other I had no real interest in.
Last night I went on another date with a guy that I really connected with. Unlike other guys I've met from this site...I was actually really looking forward to meeting this guy, without the usual doubt or worry that I usually have.
He felt the same way and we were really on the same page. We went out to eat and ended up talking for almost 3 hours. It was really nice.
We ended up coming back to my place and hooked up. Both of us have a good feeling about the whole thing and plan to hang out again.
That's about it so far.
I've come a long way in the last 3 months. I'm kind of in an exploration phase right now and realize that in some ways I'm acting like a teenager away from home for the first time. I've also been whorin' it up a bit...
But..I'm finding my way, opening new doors, being safe, and not hurting anyone. Well, I do hurt people to some degree at the club but only at their request.
For years it seemed like I was in a coma, now I'm awake....
So my sexual exploration began with my visit to a gay bondage club. I still go every week and it's just as fun, if not more, then the first time I went.
I started as a bottom only (submissive) and in the last few weeks have been topping (dom) as well assisting the other 2 tops I've developed relationships with.
By the third week of going to this club I knew for sure that I was gay when I developed a little crush on a guy I play with.
For the last 8 weeks my entire gay part of my life began and ended within the walls of this club. Although the scenes and things that take place are part of sexual play, I was not sexually active with anyone during this time.
I knew I needed to branch out, that I needed more and that I needed to have something that existed outside and unconnected to the club. I didn't want so much weight put on the club and the people I befriended there.
Within the last few weeks I began using a hook up app which allowed me to connect with other gay people in my area. Until this point, I knew of no one around me that was gay. It was a game changer.
As I finally had a new avenue to peruse my interests things at the club began to change as well. The scenes I was a part of took a more sexual turn. Usually edging, hand jobs, was as far as most scenes went. But oral play began to become a more common thing.
It began with my bondage buddy having a sub give him oral while we played with the guy. It was hot as hell. While he got oral from the sub, I gave it to the sub. A first for me, not just here, anywhere.
The next 2 weeks I also got oral from the subs I played with. It was really hot. (not to completion, it's more about the scene then the person, me)
I also had sex for the first time from a hot guy I met from the app. It was nothing special, the guy was really hot but a bit weird. Still, I got what I wanted out of the experience. I believe the term he used was flipping, lol.
I went on a few dates as well. One of them ending in fun, the other I had no real interest in.
Last night I went on another date with a guy that I really connected with. Unlike other guys I've met from this site...I was actually really looking forward to meeting this guy, without the usual doubt or worry that I usually have.
He felt the same way and we were really on the same page. We went out to eat and ended up talking for almost 3 hours. It was really nice.
We ended up coming back to my place and hooked up. Both of us have a good feeling about the whole thing and plan to hang out again.
That's about it so far.
I've come a long way in the last 3 months. I'm kind of in an exploration phase right now and realize that in some ways I'm acting like a teenager away from home for the first time. I've also been whorin' it up a bit...
But..I'm finding my way, opening new doors, being safe, and not hurting anyone. Well, I do hurt people to some degree at the club but only at their request.
For years it seemed like I was in a coma, now I'm awake....
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