02-08-2015, 03:23 PM
Hi forum,
I'm Richard and had thought a lot before joining in a forum about gay life as I consider myself as bi. I want you to help me to take a right decision and/or advice. I will timeline the events so you all can understand better:
2012 - End September we met and the first day I told him that I don't do relationship and it was just fun and do not expect any love from me. We started on this basis.
2013 - Our love affair started. We were insanely seeing each other, lot of messages, FB, chat etc. We were bonded. Mid year, I wanted to leave him because he kept saying he love me which I don't. We separated in a very horrible way and deep inside I ALWAYS LOVE HIM but could not say it because of the 11 years of difference.
2014 - we met again for his birthday and again the great story continued, we started afresh and I long waited that time to finally say that I loved him. But alas, he bluntly said he don't feel any love towards me and there is nothing between us. My world went terribly wrong. First time, I cried for someone, I went into a despair situation where I just couldn't breath without him. Finally December 2014 came, and he was cold and he went to have sex with others.
2015 Jan - he was seeing someone and things went wrong. It happen that I phoned him and we started to see each other on a different note. But todate (Feb 15), everytime I indulged myself with emotions and says 'I love him' and I kept crying when I miss him on the phone. I can not live away from him and I don't know what he feel for me. Im trying everyday to be with him, on phone, messages etc. But I realize that im becoming more possessive about him. I need to know what going on with me and the best way to keep thing moving without putting any pressure on him.
I'm Richard and had thought a lot before joining in a forum about gay life as I consider myself as bi. I want you to help me to take a right decision and/or advice. I will timeline the events so you all can understand better:
2012 - End September we met and the first day I told him that I don't do relationship and it was just fun and do not expect any love from me. We started on this basis.
2013 - Our love affair started. We were insanely seeing each other, lot of messages, FB, chat etc. We were bonded. Mid year, I wanted to leave him because he kept saying he love me which I don't. We separated in a very horrible way and deep inside I ALWAYS LOVE HIM but could not say it because of the 11 years of difference.
2014 - we met again for his birthday and again the great story continued, we started afresh and I long waited that time to finally say that I loved him. But alas, he bluntly said he don't feel any love towards me and there is nothing between us. My world went terribly wrong. First time, I cried for someone, I went into a despair situation where I just couldn't breath without him. Finally December 2014 came, and he was cold and he went to have sex with others.
2015 Jan - he was seeing someone and things went wrong. It happen that I phoned him and we started to see each other on a different note. But todate (Feb 15), everytime I indulged myself with emotions and says 'I love him' and I kept crying when I miss him on the phone. I can not live away from him and I don't know what he feel for me. Im trying everyday to be with him, on phone, messages etc. But I realize that im becoming more possessive about him. I need to know what going on with me and the best way to keep thing moving without putting any pressure on him.
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