03-20-2015, 04:15 AM
reaper Wrote:[MENTION=18508]East[/MENTION]....I basically did submit. I did have very mixed feelings about it too.
That place was important to me, as were a few people I knew their. It was fun and different.
But the fact that I knew it would be hurtful or diminishing to my boyfriend made me chose not to go.
He loves me to much and is way to good to me for me to keep going.
For what he gives he deserves way more then that!!
Oh yeah...the mixed feelings....
I think a metaphor for that exact feeling when you submit is similar to struggling at first but remembering how to breathe under water...like a dolphin! I sometimes resist a lot...but I know how to submit when it is time...
Like I said...I really love the choice you made....I understand that choice and agree with it!