12-26-2008, 02:43 AM
Well, yeah, without doubt, but I guess I came looking for people to talk to about this whole thing, I mean, I've been the straight hanger-on in a couple of scenes but I'm frighteningly naive I guess, and annoyingly enough all my close mates are straight, so love 'em though I do they're not a great deal of use while I figure this stuff out. Maybe I'm overthinking things but after 22 years of hiding what I thought was a bit of a swing in the gay direction it turns out I was hiding a hell of a lot more that I didn't know about. I mean, feckin' ell, I'm 35 and suddenly there's a whole new half of me I didn't know about. It's been an extremely intense time, and while I love what's developing in myself it still kicks my ass and is kind lonely I spose. Small towns, what can you do. Really hit me after the first time I was called the F word just for talking about it with a bud down the pub. Different world, many ramifications.
But yeah, meeting someone would be good too, just taking it all very slowly. Easily done on that score, meeting a guy where I am is all but completely unlikely.
But yeah, meeting someone would be good too, just taking it all very slowly. Easily done on that score, meeting a guy where I am is all but completely unlikely.