Although I have never thought of myself as gay, i.e blokes don't do anything for me and gayporn is more of a turn off than a turn on, I have always enjoyed crossdressing and have always enjoyed doing it with female company as part of cosplay/roleplay.
However lately I have started to have a new fantasy. I have a full make up on, a little bit too much, just enough to be tarty without being trashy, very strong feminine perfume, and dressed in a satin underwear, satin blouse, tight satin knee length skirt, sating gloves, high heel, suede knee high boots. In the fantasy I have invited 6 gay guys over for a night of drinks and chat, or so they think, but as the night progresses I gradually flirt with them and touch them up, cocktease them, although never letting them go as far as they want. Eventually I los control of the situation and I am forced to suck them off one after the other and I am ridden like a dog by them. Once they have all used me they them creampie me. Am I crossing over into gay territory?
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That's more faggoty than a three dollar bill.
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Yeah three dollar bills are queer, but then you deal with $9 bills, $15.00 Bills, $3.00 bills make it much easier to make change.
To the OP: you are a cross dresser - find, wonderful - whatever.
The problem with your 'fantasy' is that 6 gay guys who are wanting to be with a woman in dress is going to be hard to find. This isn't to say that some gay men don't do cross dressers - its just that most gay men are looking for, um, erm... men.
Since in this 'fantasy' the real meat of the matter is not so much your being dressed as a woman, but that you 'lose control' of the situation and are 'forced' to suck dick - its highly possible that you are actually seeking a more Dom/sub sort of thing.
This cross dressing part also may play a role. You claim you dislike gay porn (which I assume is two dudes or all dudes getting at it in pretty much 'equal' roles). IT is possible that you have a sense that being a woman makes you weaker and more prone to 'attack' and the whole 'delight' for you is not so much dressing as a woman, but having yourself 'forced' to submit.
There is, in the BDSM Community, a wide range of straight BDSM where women take the Dom role. I don't know if you have ever investigated that arena, but perhaps you should actually look up Straight BDSM and Dominatrix porn to watch and see if that suits you more.
And yes, Straight Dominating Women BDSM does often include the whole 'dressing up as a woman' for the man thing as a part of humiliation and dominion. Mind I haven't watched that much of THAT kind of porn, but I was part of the leather/BDSM crowd in San Francisco when I was in my 20's, and this sort of straight cross dressing BDSM thing took place a lot.
Its more 'straight', but might feed the real need you have - to be dominated.
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I find that fantasies go all over the place, we get bored and invent new "dirty" things to think about to make our solo time(s) more fun.
Don't try to analyze it, sometimes a cigar is not a cigar.
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Sissysusie Wrote:Am I crossing over into gay territory?
Well, I would hardly say that you are fantasising about a bullish hetrosexual world.
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I agree with [MENTION=12444]Bowyn Aerrow[/MENTION], this sounds like a submission fantasy. I've seen a couple similar scenes of what the Doms called forced humiliation.
In our fantasies, we're free to be and do whatever we can imagine...no boundaries. Acting them out IRL is another story...imagining them beforehand, I expected those scenes to be really hot, but in reality didn't find them arousing at all...even though it was consensual and the subs participated willingly, I found it disturbing...
But, to answer your question...by definition, gay men are attracted to other men. So ,putting aside the fantasy...are you attracted to men? Do you want sex with a man? If not, then I think we're talking kink rather than sexual identity.
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No one can put a limit on YOUR fantasy...
It is after all YOURS!
I have heard and seen stranger things happening in reality , I really don't think this is far fetched.
In conclusion:
The only reason you're not fond of watching a gay porn ... You're not in it! 😝
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Masters and Johnson has been polling American Women for decades..and each decade...rape is the number one fantasy of women...
Why? Well...my opinion only...women are not permitted to have sexual feelings until a man "makes them" feel something.....it is ages of religious bullshit that has shaped the role of a woman .....
...and rape gives them permission to feel things...in FANTASY...that they are not supposed to feel otherwise because "good girls" just don't do that...only the dreaded sluts and whores own their bodies and their desires and don't wait for a man to give them permission. LOL
I don't know why you dress up...but most likely you had a role model...and perhaps you absorbed more than you think.....
There is more to being a woman than putting on their clothes .....
Perhaps that distresses you?
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