I'm guessing here that this strange feeling that you're referring to must be love. From you're profile it looks like you're fairly secure in knowing that you're gay and you refer to this guy as your boyfriend, so I have to class your comment "I have a strange feeling for my boyfriend" in terms of you trying to deal with the overwhelming feeling that is a part of being in love. That you're calling it a strange feeling indicates to me that this is a first love, since the intensity is an unknown feeling to you.
Granted I'm assuming a great deal here, but you're post wasn't filled with details. So I'm just trying to pull meaning from the words you have given us.
If real first love is the case, take a breath, calm down, and relax. First love is a complicated wash of emotion that often leaves people without much perspective concerning the rest of their lives. Often in such cases your one driving wish is to be with him because everything he says, everything he does, how he moves, how he talks and looks, those things make you feel more at ease with yourself than you have ever felt with anyone else. First love is often an all consuming feeling and the weight of that intense feeling can cloud your judgement. To borrow a line from what would now be considered a vintage movie, "That's why they call them crushes. If they were easy, they'd call 'em something else."
I'm also assuming here that you're probably still in school... high school? WMU? That would account for you still living with you parents and the fact that you cannot simply pick your whole life up and move to his location. I've known many men who have made such drastic moves in the name of love.
If, though, this is the first time you've felt so strongly about another guy, take the time to listen to what I'm going to tell you. Slow down. Let yourself think... and I mean really examine how this feeling is affecting your life. If all you can think about is wanting to be with him, you're losing the perspective of your life as it relates to the real world around you. Of where you live, of what you would do with your future even if you could go to him. Above all, think about what you might find when you do actually meet him. I'm over fifty years old and I can tell you from experience that the guys I first felt strongly about in my life were often not what I wanted once they were in my life. The fantasy of the situation rarely measures up to the reality. In addition, one of "my first true loves" very nearly got me sent home to my parents back in Grayling in a body bag with a toe tag reading my name and the word Deceased.
Yeah, I grew up in Grayling, not more than fifty miles from Traverse City. You cannot begin to imagine the number of times I wished to hell that I could live in T.C. because Grayling was such a craphole. Even more than that, I just wanted the hell out of Michigan. There are worse places to live than T.C., believe me my friend. As a child my family used to go to Acme just to see a movie at the drive in theatre. It's not there anymore. We used to go to Old Town when they closed off the entire street and businesses moved merchandise outdoor any marked down prices. Our family camped at the park across from the beach. Some of the very best theatre productions I've seen were done by community theatre groups in T.C., productions every bit as moving as anything I've seen in professional theatres in big cities.
What I'm asking you is to try and slow your thinking down about this guy. Take advantage of the resources around you while you can, because you're going to need that kind of experience later on in life. If your school situation isn't good, try to rise above it and keep your emotional self intact. Stay in touch with this guy online if you need to, but don't make any rash decisions like running away to live with him, even if he urges you to do it. Time will give you perspective. Taking your time with this overwhelming feeling will give you a calmer state of mind and the ability to fit this relationship into your real world life.
And, as the others above me have noted, your initial post was very vague. Be completely honest with us, why do your parents dislike this guy? Don't just give us your opinion of why they don't like him, what have they actually said about him to you? Do you, or they actually know him? Have you ever met IRL? Without knowing the specifics of this situation I'll say this: Give your parents the benefit of the doubt. Maybe they're just trying to help you, or protect you from pain with lessons they've learned from life. Or are they just parents who dislike the fact that you're gay? Those of us replying to you can't really give you great advice if we don't have an unbiased idea of the full picture.
And before you ask, no, I no longer live in Grayling. When I was very young and rash I fled to Los Angeles and it was one of the worst decisions I ever made. It very nearly got me dead. Dead as in not breathing. I fled from Grayling to Lansing twice after that, moving back home each time because, like Dorothy, “If I ever go looking for my heart's desire again, I won't look any further than my own back yard. Because if it isn't there, I never really lost it to begin with.”
That last time I moved home, settled down and quit looking for happiness anywhere but inside myself, I actually found the man of my dreams. Living just down the street from where I grew up. He was the boy next door. And more than 30 years later, we're still together.
So calm down. Breath. Take time to allow yourself to gain some perspective. Finish school. If it is true love it will last the test of time and distance, but not without a lot of work. Relationships are work my friend. Learn the test of patience instead of blindly leaping into a situation or making comments in the heat of the moment. Learning patience will serve you well in keeping a relationship alive.
Take care of you first. And tell us more information so we can help you with clearer answers. Be honest with us and yourself. People here will help you if we know the whole of the story, not just the little bit you've shared.
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