Happy Happenstance

[Beaux]

I know this is going to sound like a cray-cray question, especially since I am choosing not to share details, but do you ever feel like you just need to keep some good thing that has happened to you to your self?

A few days ago, someone who I do not know in real life (and someone who knows nothing about me, as far as I know) choose to give me a gift that has the potential to change my life. I don't know why this person decided to do what he did, nor can I imagine how his actions would benefit him in anyway, however, he did it anyway and I am so deeply touched.

Needless to say, my husband is displaying signs of serious displeasure-- with that said, I don't won't to talk about him and I honestly don't give a rats-ass if he likes it or not. Let's just say, that a very well respected someone decided (for reasons unknown) to gift to me something that in a couple of years will give me the financial means to support myself independently for the rest of my life, and (besides the deep feeling of awe and gratified) for once in my life I have decided not to look a gift horse in the mouth.

In the past, had someone given me such and unbelievable gift, I would have shouted it from the roof tops, but for some reason I can't bring myself to tell anyone. Maybe it is because it still doesn't feel real...or maybe it is because I don't want to draw attention to such a famous and respected person...but I don't think that is it. I think that the real reason I haven't told EVERYONE that such a well known individual decided for reasons unknown to present me with an opportunity to become independent, is because it feels so very very special that I just want to keep it to myself to enjoy for a little longer. Can anyone else relate to something like that...?

~Beaux

[CellarDweller]

While I can't relate to what you explain, I can certainly understand why you would keep this "close to the vest".

Protect it, and use it to take care of yourself, since your husband won't take care of you. I hope you are still working on getting away from him.

[LONDONER]

Ditto to what CellarDweller says.

[Insertnamehere]

Ok there are various levels of questions you are asking here. From the more general to the more specific:

1) Personally, I feel like not telling anything to anyone about what happens to me on a daily basis, except when it's someone really close to me. So yes, I get that feeling. Maybe I take it to the extreme, I know, but me keeping these things to myself is not harming anyone, which is the great measure standard I use when considering or not "omission" as betrayal or lie.

2) Yes, getting to enjoy what's happening to you by keeping it for yourself in the meantime is something I can relate to. Nothing wrong about that. Maybe you even think you'll jynx it if you say something for this or that reason. Plus, when you have been in your situation, it seems unbelievable that something good can come out of the blue.

3) On your personal and specific situation, yes, it is CRITICAL that you keep this from that monster, because he WILL find a way to ruin it for you if he finds out. By all means, keep him ignorant of anything that means your freedom of him, your independence and your happiness. We all know he doesn't want any of those things for you.