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Dan1980 · 09-05-2016, 12:34 AM

Hi welcome to GS. I am sorry about your mum I lost my mum to cancer at the beginning of the year.

09-05-2016, 12:38 AM

I'm sorry to hear that Dan, it's an awful way to see a loved one go.
I hope you are ok now?

Dan1980 · 09-05-2016, 12:43 AM

MisterMagoo Wrote:I'm sorry to hear that Dan, it's an awful way to see a loved one go.
I hope you are ok now?

Thank you, it is awful too lose a loved one. I am ok now but there's not a day that goes by where I don't think of mum.

InbetweenDreams · 09-05-2016, 12:47 AM

MisterMagoo Wrote:Thank you Axle.

Yes it's been an awful time, sitting in the hospital watching Mum fade away, heartbreaking.

But life goes on, no matter how much we don't ant it to at times.
The last thing Mum would want is for me to be sad, and let things get on top of me.

So here I am, a small step to rebuilding my circle of friends, and moving on.

Onwards and upwards my friend.

I hope your Mum recovers quickly, lack of mobility must be awful for her.

And thanks for the heads up on the moderation.

It is heartbreaking to be honest. She really wants to be out of the char, so much that she wouldn't stay in it and ended up having to put a screw in her foot. I wish I could help her more but I guess between being an imperfect being and working a lot I stay unaware of some of the things going on. I want her to be out of the chair and I wish she weren't in constant pain. I wish she had been blessed with a healthy life, but that hasn't been the case.

At any rate let me know if there's anything I can help you with, I am always happy to talk, I certainly don't have all the answers, far from it, but sometimes just letting go can help.

09-05-2016, 12:48 AM

Yes I can understand that.
For me it was the speed that it all happened. Although for Mum, the speed was a blessing I think.

I only have a small family, and it's really devastated us.

09-05-2016, 12:55 AM

Well that is strange!
I edited my reply then it vanished!

InbetweenDreams · 09-05-2016, 12:59 AM

MisterMagoo Wrote:Yes I can understand that.
For me it was the speed that it all happened. Although for Mum, the speed was a blessing I think.

I only have a small family, and it's really devastated us.

Very sorry.

My mom started having seizures when I was about 5 maybe 6 years old...around 1992... They found 3 brain tumors. She was forced to leave her job sometime back in the 90's after falling down a marble stair case during a tornado warning...the elevators were out of service...She fell because she went into a grand mal seizure. From there it's been RA, heart attack, COPD from smoking, and so on...there's more but I think everyone gets the idea. So it has been a slow, worrisome decline... I absolutely dread the day that I get up in the morning and she's not around. I think it is really going to hit hard even though back in 1992 the doctors said she had maybe 6 months to a year to live. Every day is a gift and I need to treat it as such and sometimes that is hard to do with all the things that go on in a day... I just feel like I letting her and myself down because I just don't seem to get it in gear some days...but I love her very much and I just wish that she could get out and do more but any more she has limited mobility.

Anyway, sorry to dump this on your introductory thread... but I am certainly here for anyone who's going through this sort of thing, it's can be a very dark place.

InbetweenDreams · 09-05-2016, 01:00 AM

Are you kidding me? My post just got "selected" for moderation... Lovely...

09-05-2016, 01:01 AM

Yours did?

I typed out a massive long page and it vanished!

InbetweenDreams · 09-05-2016, 01:05 AM

Yeah either some sort of glitch or someone "reported" my post or something...

Well to sum it what I said up... my mom has been sick since 1992... they found 3 brain tumors, from there it was diabetes, COPD, hear attack and so on... She was told in 1992 that she had 6 month to a year to live. We don't know the status of the tumors because she doesn't want to do an MRI and my dad won't pay for it because they don't have insurance and they think it is hopeless. So I've been worried about losing my mom since I was 5 years old... and I dread the day that I get up in the morning and she isn't around anymore. :/