You are not calling me a whore, are you?
Actually, I wish I was sometimes. I am so exhausted most of the time, I do not have the energy for more than quick tug. I have not yet developed the Bill Clinton method of thinking. I read that he views his mind as a skyscraper, and he keeps different problems on different floors. He is able to turn off all problems except for the one he is dealing with right now. I am told this is a quality many intellectual leaders share. My gift is to assist, and I am extremely good at it. I have seen my SAT scores, IQ, and MMPI. There is a certain comfort in knowing ones limitations, and then pushing the limits! To me it is more fun to compete with yourself than with others. You find many allies.
I am not talking about the stress of making a living, maintaining a relationship, or just the basic stuff of getting through the day. Everyone has to deal with that. While not community service, I am part of the media structure that makes pro-GLBT and liberal things happen, and it is draining. When I see fags who just let real problems go in favor of their pleasure, it makes me wonder why I bother to care.
But, I do care, and that is that. I have been given an opportunity in advertising that many desire, and when I meet my maker, I will know that I did the
best I could for my community. The Boy Scouts of America gave me a merit badge called "Citizenship in the Community," I just want another one!
I ban the person below me because the person above me made me think. Damn it.