04-03-2011, 01:17 PM
Hey guys...
Sometimes - okay, most of the times - I feel so confused about myself. For starters, I was always a little behind other people my age when it comes to romance and sex and stuff. I first kissed a boy, mostly because of peer pressure, when I was fifteen, thought it was digusting and never did it again. I don't really know when I started noticing that I might like girls better, but since I never fell for anybody it never seemed an issue wheter I was gay or not. Six years later I still haven't kissed my first girl (or another boy, for that matter) or fell in love - heck, or even just liked liked anybody -, and since I have self esteem issues is not likely that I'll go up to somebody and say "Hey, I do't know how to kiss, but let'a make out?". To make matters worse, I don't have any gay friends that I might talk about stuff like this. My straight friends are cool with it, but it's not the same, they don't really understand what I'm going through. Sometimes I even wonder am I really gay or what??
Sometimes - okay, most of the times - I feel so confused about myself. For starters, I was always a little behind other people my age when it comes to romance and sex and stuff. I first kissed a boy, mostly because of peer pressure, when I was fifteen, thought it was digusting and never did it again. I don't really know when I started noticing that I might like girls better, but since I never fell for anybody it never seemed an issue wheter I was gay or not. Six years later I still haven't kissed my first girl (or another boy, for that matter) or fell in love - heck, or even just liked liked anybody -, and since I have self esteem issues is not likely that I'll go up to somebody and say "Hey, I do't know how to kiss, but let'a make out?". To make matters worse, I don't have any gay friends that I might talk about stuff like this. My straight friends are cool with it, but it's not the same, they don't really understand what I'm going through. Sometimes I even wonder am I really gay or what??