I'm Going to Die Alone

[dfiant]

G Day WinterStorm.

Firstly, drug and alcohol fueled gay bars are not the place you are going to find a fulfilling relationship, and if you don't drink or use drugs then you will probably only end feeling more alienated in that such environment.

Gay dating websites are not all bad, perhaps find one that requires registration to be able to view profiles and people outside that site will be less likely to come across your profile.

How about 'Out In Jersey' - (outinjersey 'dot' net) or NJGaylife (njgaylife 'dot' com) Got them from a quick google of 'New Jersey Gay'.

I'll tell you 2 things about myself - I don't drink or take drugs, and I am disgusted by anal sex. You will be genuinely suprised to find how normal this is.

Mate, don't keep thinking that you aren't worthy because your life is precious and you are a valuable and you will always be needed. Don't put so much pressure on yourself to find a relationship, get out there and socialise in one of the plethora of social groups catering for gays and lesbians, build friendships and somewhere along the line, one of those friendships will build into a relationship.

Good luck ;-)