09-25-2011, 01:50 PM
LateBloomer Wrote:Just be gentle with yourself and others.
Your age is a difficult one; caught between man and boy. Not to mention your testosterone is RAGING right now.
There's a very specific reason young men are recruited into the Armies of the world at exactly your age. Your blood is being pumped full of testosterone right now and that causes anger and aggression. I bet you just feel like you wanna rip off someone's head, am I right?
Just try some relaxation techniques; like praying, meditating, whatever works for you. Get lots of exercise. LOTS. And cut back on the alcohol. Remember whatever you're mixing that alcohol with is also mixing with your testosterone and the result is a wicked cocktail that runs through your brain.
But don't worry, as you age, you'll mellow out, like a fine wine. The rough edges will be smoother and you'll have depth of character.
Hang in there.
To be honest I rarely gets angry or frustrated, I get annoyed, upset, sad and depressed instead. I do not like to show my inner emotions and mostly as i am around people i am acting like nothing is wrong, when i either feel to break a window and take a piece of glass and cut some ones throat or my own... I don't like it my self when people have an angry outburst, sometimes it can be pretty frighting and i think it lacks of discipline... But i know that it isn't good to store anger and feelings.
Many has told me that i should join the Army and it would do me some good, The only thing i could see that would be positive would be if i loose some pounds, but it mostly stands for everything i am opposing.
I rarely drinks, never been a party animal, and as you say mix it with testosterone and its a bad mix. I don't know why but i often end up in a berserk rage, like at my graduation which i am not so proud of.
I do like to meditate but i must be in the nature and living in the center there is hard to find a nice forest and the wrong kind. Its not so soothing if you do in a building, whether its to noicy and stiff. I often just smoke a joint whenever i feel to frustrated, I know it isn't good for me but it helps alot i would say.