11-25-2007, 12:14 AM
I was straight, I had dated girls, not very successfully but I knew I was straight. Being a comfortably straight guy I had no problem being on web cam casually topless to male friends. There was one guy, my best friend of xbox live who I used to do this a lot with not for any reason cept we had webcams.
Over the course of a week I got relitively attracted to this guy, from being a hetrosexual male, I had had days in the past like any teen where I wondered if I could be gay. But this just felt right, amazingly he felt the same way and we became an internet couple (but we never actually met once)
It lasted a week and he decided he would rather be straight, he had lied about many things and I learned a fair few things from the experience. I was left with the choice to be gay, bi or return to being straight but I found my mind rapidly made that choice for me until I felt sure I was to be gay.
But people say this is something your born with not something that just happens? maybe theres something bigger at work here, I am an agnostic afterall and I do believe in a master plan.
The thing that worries me now is what if I change back? how can I ever know if ill always be like this?
Over the course of a week I got relitively attracted to this guy, from being a hetrosexual male, I had had days in the past like any teen where I wondered if I could be gay. But this just felt right, amazingly he felt the same way and we became an internet couple (but we never actually met once)
It lasted a week and he decided he would rather be straight, he had lied about many things and I learned a fair few things from the experience. I was left with the choice to be gay, bi or return to being straight but I found my mind rapidly made that choice for me until I felt sure I was to be gay.
But people say this is something your born with not something that just happens? maybe theres something bigger at work here, I am an agnostic afterall and I do believe in a master plan.
The thing that worries me now is what if I change back? how can I ever know if ill always be like this?