before or after?

[pocket_pilgrim]

well i am sure she suspects it, but she hopes it isn't true... i am very outgoing but by no means flamboyant. we have the same type of humour that borders both on goofy and kinky, in a smart and never out-in-the-open way. i often "joke" about me being gay, and at one point we did have a casual talk about "what if?" (one of those long, all-night talks about everything and nothing) and when i asked "what if i were gay?" her reaction was very interesting: she was really excited, and said "that would be really cool! you do realise you'd be the first gay person i know right? and having a gay friend is something every girl wants - and i expect to hear all the details!!". on the other hand, she is definitely very much into me and has repeatedly hinted that she wants more... i guess i am the only guy who has been there for her, through good times and bad, and so far she's dated nothing but bad apples. but i guess her general attitude will be of acceptance and it may even bring us closer than before... at least that is what i hope.

anyway, thank you so much for the reply... it means a lot to me. i really appreciate it...

i'll see what i am going to do.

later,
t.