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[Cowboy]

Also I understand that I need to get clean from drugs but honestly right now they are the only thing keeping me from suicide, I need to sort of my homophobia issues first.

Cowboy, what I'm seeing is you perpetuating your own trap in several thinking errors.

If using is the only thing keeping you from suicide yet you must change your homophobia first, I assert you are doomed to fail friend. The poor solution of using to avoid pain will only keep you spinning away from the homophobia resolution. 

There's no charges so there's really no excuse. They MAIN thing is to be open and honest as you can muster, especially about your thoughts about harm to yourself or others.

SMART Recovery

Wishing you all the very best.

I respect your experience. I see what you're trying to saying, but I have a concern and perhaps a justification.

I'm fearing that the all out pressure of trying to get clean and get mentally well at the same time will be too much. I know I would fail if I try to do all of that at once. I really only use drugs to sleep and not for fun also.

My mental health county office has reduced services because of the pandemic, and cancelled all meetings but they have some staffing for emergencies. They gave me a number for the community warmline for emergencies.

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I also gave away 25% of my drugs today, so its a step forward.