Can sexual abuse be forgotten?

[fenris]

If there is the possibility of a abuse I agree with juk and would say that you should visit a professional........ and there is no need to be ashamed or whatever.

I don´t think that your search for a older man... a father to love you is a sign of a abuse. To many men of your age are searching for a older men... like a father. I think its more the wish to be protected by a older man, to feeling safe and no need to make sorrows about it.
Or maybe you only like "them" more then men of your age....