03-07-2016, 10:43 PM
First of all I want to say that I am (or I was) completely straight guy. Then something happened and I don't know what to think about myself anymore. Hopefully you can help me to understand better my situation. Before I start the story just want to mention this. So far in my life I smoked only joint and I am 31 at the moment, 30 when this story has happened. I didn't know anything about ecstasy, what is it, what effect has on a person. I just knew it's a party drug.
Itâs a long story but I think worth of reading it. Your comments are appreciated after reading. Thank you.
It was summer and I was traveling around Europe. After traveling around UK, I came to Amsterdam and stayed with a gay guy I met on a forum for travelers. First day we went to a party, smoked one joint, drank beer, just a regular night out. He knew I am straight and he didn't try anything. He respected my sexuality.
Next day we went to a party during the day and came back to his place in the evening. We started drinking and chatting. He is very interesting person and we had many things to talk about. We also smoked few joints and started talking bullshit and laugh. We were talking about drugs and I told him that I never tried any drug like ecstasy. He said that he has one and if I want I can have it. We split one pill as I was afraid to take whole pill for the first time. After 30 minutes while still smoking joint and drinking, I started to feel the effect of E. I was very relaxed and really enjoyed the night. Felt very overwhelmed. As we kept smoking joint it had such effect that we were not able to have a proper conversation anymore. We would forget what we were talking about in the middle of the sentence. I was asking stupid questions, talking bullshit. Also I was shaking because I felt cold and it was middle of the summer. He explained me that is normal for the first time.
Ok. This was an intro. Now interesting part comes
He was laying on one couch and I was laying on a couch across him. We were both relaxed and I really enjoyed every moment and felt so nice. At some point I noticed he was rubbing his dick and it was erected and looked very big. My first thought was, OMG, I thought he is a nice guy and he is not gonna try anything and now he is horny and gonna try something even I told him I am straight. Anyway, I was not concerned as he is really a nice person.
I don't know how we pull this topic out, but at some point we started to talk about poppers. I had no idea what is it so he explained me and asked me if I want to try. Didn't know what to expect after sniffing. First sniff, my heart started beating like crazy, I felt like I can't breath and jump down from the bed and started rolling on the floor because I didn't know how to control the feeling. After was over I was like, OMG, it's amazing and tried one more time.
Now, are you ready for the real story?
He started talking about sucking cock while on ecstasy and poppers. First time he said that I had a discrete laugh. Then, he said it again "I like sucking a cock while on E, it's the best feeling in the world". I asked what is the feeling like and started to think about him sucking me if he really wants. At that point, E really overwhelmed me in co-operation with poppers. I couldn't think clearly anymore and started to imagine that feeling. I was also horny as I didn't have sex for more than 2 weeks. At some point I had to go to the toilet then went to take a shower. I was thinking like this, if something is gonna happen I'd better be clean (I didn't take a shower after the party that day). Still I wasn't sure if I will do something with him or not. Just wanted to clear out my head under the shower.
And then, BOOM. Under the shower I felt even more overwhelmed. It was like the best feeling in the world. He asked me how is it and I said it's good, you should join me. I couldn't believe what I just said. I just invited a guy to take a shower with me together, NAKED. That means only one thing.
* * * Now I have to make a break and tell you one important thing before I continue with the story. One year before this happened, I was in a sex club and had a sex with a girl as other people as well. There were gay, lesbians, straight people... While I was fucking a girl, one guy approached me from behind and when my dick was outside her pussy while I was licking her boobs, he grabbed my dick and started wanking me. First time I pushed his hand immediately. He did it again. I was way busy playing with her boobs and he was jerking my dick very good. The feeling was nice so I let him do it for about 10 seconds then told him to stop. After that great feeling I started to be curious how is it to be with guys, jerk them off, suck them, etc. I heard about app grindr, installed it on my phone and made two encounters with random guys from that app. It was just blow and go. With both guys I was very shy and afraid to do it but after they started sucking me I felt more comfortable and I sucked them too and I liked it very much. Even after these two encounters, I still felt as straight. No doubt about that. I was afraid I might turn gay or mess up with my sexuality so firmly decided to stop doing this in the future. * * *
Letâs go back to the story. I invited him to join me under the shower and he came quickly. He started cuddling me and tried to kiss me but I refused. I can't kiss a guy. For me kissing is more personal and emotional. I can do it only with girls. He went down and started sucking me. I wasn't hard at that moment. Then he pushed my head to his penis. I was looking forward for it. He was not hard too and his dick was very small. I was kinda disappointed. WTF did I do. I came to someone's house, did all this things and realized that his dick is small. I finished the shower, went outside the bathrrom and started feeling very bad and I apologized to him. Btw. he is black. Not completely black, let's say 80%. I thought he must have a big dick plus I saw something big inside his underwear 10 minutes ago when he was rubbing his cock on a couch. I should have asked him first about the size then do something. I like big dicks. Thatâs why. He told me that I don't have to worry and we don't have to continue if I don't feel comfortable. I told him "I am fine with it but I thought that you have a bigger dick". He replied, "but I have a big dick, 19 cm" and then he pulled out his dick out of his underwear and WOW, his dick was really big and nice looking. I was amazed and couldn't get off my eyes out of his dick. Without thinking I grabbed his cock and put it in my mouth. The feeling was amazing. The best feeling in the world. He gave me more poppers and I became even more horny and tried to deep throat him. Of course I couldn't do it at that time, but I went like 70% even his dick was really big and thick. I stopped sucking him for awhile and said, "It's so beautiful, I donât wanna suck you, I just want to admire your dick and look at it". Seriously, I couldn't suck him, I just wanted to stare at his amazing dick and admire it. I was cuddling with his dick, kissing the head, licking and the feeling was amazing. Later on I continued sucking him and he sucked me then we went to his room and played until 5 in the morning.
I was not sure about this but because I was horny as hell, I told him to come in my mouth at the end. He came like crazy and my mouth was full of his sperm. It was warm and the taste was ok but I didnât swallow. I spitted it out.
The story is not over yet. The next day we repeated everything except E. It was nice again. Since then one year has passed. Meanwhile I was thinking about sucking him many times. I couldnât forget that good feeling of sucking his dick. He said he wants to go one step further and kiss each other next time. I told him I canât do that with a guy and he understood. We stayed in contact all the time and I visited him again last summer.
First night, even I took E again, I felt uncomfortable and was shy again. I was not sure about doing it again even I really wanted to. I guess I just panicked or was nervous. It has passed 40 minutes since I took E and didnât feel very horny. Just a little bit. Then we rolled a joint, smoked and BOOM, I became extremey horny immediately because joint increases the effect of E and you become hornier. Again same thing happened. I just wanted to admire his cock, cuddle with it and kiss it gently. I sucked him very good a bit later. One more thing to add. While I am on E I have an urge to tell him some of my sexual stories from the past as well as some sexual secrets I didnât tell anyone. I guess itâs the effect of E. Also I canât stop talking. I was being honest with him, told him how much I liked what are we doing right now. Told him that I was thinking about his cock for a whole past year. Donât know why. I couldnât stop being honest and saying out loud all these things. He felt flattered about everything he heard from me and kissed me. I coudlnât refuse him. I kissed him back and it was nice. He has big soft lips. Great for kissing. We went to the bed and started kissing very passionate. I enjoyed every moment even I thought I wouldnât be able to. Then he started touching and licking my ass. That was a big NO for me but at that time I was way too horny on E to tell him to stop plus I enjoyed it. The next day when the E effect was gone, I didnât feel comfortable with kissing anymore.
I wanted to try a threesome with a guy so for the second night he invited his friend, a black guy from Africa with a big cock. I was very excited and, oh boy, it was a different level of everything. I sucked both guys at the same time while being high on weed and poppers. We all kissed each other, African guy sucked me and my friend was fucking me in my mouth at the same time, then, African guy and I sucked my friend at the same time and they both sucked me at the same time as well. Amazing feeling. Itâs a pity we didnât have E that night. I guess I would have enjoyed even more. At the end I sniffed poppers and African guy came in my mouth. I spitted out his sperm, then, while on poppers again, my friend came in my mouth. I have to admit that I like the feeling of someone coming in my mouth plus I know itâs a great feeling for the one who comes so I want him to have even more pleasure instead of coming in a napkin.
Third night we were alone and I told him I want to give him a blow job marathon. I wanted to suck him for 2 hours. I took whole pill of E, smoked joint and sniffed poppers. I ended up sucking him for 4 hours and deep throated him for about 90% of size of his cock. I still have to pactice that but I am sure next time I will do it. I am very slutty when I am sucking him. I like to be submissive (but I am dominant while having sex with girls). I like when he pulls my head towards his cock. Sometimes he wants to have sex on the bed but I prefer to stay in a living room on a couch because he is sitting on a couch and I am on my knees. While 4 hours session he got hungry and went to the kitchen to prepare food and eat. I couldnât wait for him to come back so I went there, got down on my knees and sucked him in the kitchen. Donât now why, but I feel much more horny while sucking on my knees. I like to be sumbissive and I like dominant guys who force me to suck them. I know itâs sounds like I am joking but thatâs the truth. I became so good at sucking dicks. He told me I am in his top 5 suckers that he ever had and he had more than 50. He said I suck better than many gay guys and I put more feelings into sucking. And I just started doing it
I plan to visit him again and stay even longer. I canât stop thinking about him. Not in a way that I love him, but in a passionate way that I want to have sex with him again. He is a nice person and a good friend and I feel very comfortable with him. I donât mind kissing him anymore. Actually I like it now. Since we met for the first time, we significally imporoved our relationship (not boyfriend relationship but as human beings). Canât stop thinking about what we are gonna do next time when we meet. I would like to try foursome next time possibly with black guys. I realized I like strong black guys with big dicks. Somehow they turn me on. I am caucassian btw. very tall, handsome and nice looking. Every night before I go to sleep I have sexual thoughts about me sucking him and having fun together. I even stopped masturbating on girls. I still do it but not so much like before.
Just want to point this thing out. I donât feel like I want to have sex with unnumerous number of guys. All my passion is oriented to him. I just want to have sex with him and his friends if possible. I like to try new things. On the other side, I want to fuck every hot girl I see. Thats what I donât understand. Why I want to have sex only with him and not with other guys.
So here is my question. What is going on with me? All my life I was 100% straight. I had 2 encounters with guys but that didnât turn me gay. After I met this guy I started to feel more passionate about having sex with him than with girls. I donât know whatâs next. I am afraid I might stop liking girls. What do you think? Is it because of E or something else? Did something similar happen to you?
I donât know why I enjoy sucking cock so much. Suddenly it became my passion even I never tried it since 2 years ago. I have a feeling that I could suck a cock every night. I donât know what I am gonna do about this one day when I get married with a girl (I hope)
Itâs a long story but I think worth of reading it. Your comments are appreciated after reading. Thank you.
It was summer and I was traveling around Europe. After traveling around UK, I came to Amsterdam and stayed with a gay guy I met on a forum for travelers. First day we went to a party, smoked one joint, drank beer, just a regular night out. He knew I am straight and he didn't try anything. He respected my sexuality.
Next day we went to a party during the day and came back to his place in the evening. We started drinking and chatting. He is very interesting person and we had many things to talk about. We also smoked few joints and started talking bullshit and laugh. We were talking about drugs and I told him that I never tried any drug like ecstasy. He said that he has one and if I want I can have it. We split one pill as I was afraid to take whole pill for the first time. After 30 minutes while still smoking joint and drinking, I started to feel the effect of E. I was very relaxed and really enjoyed the night. Felt very overwhelmed. As we kept smoking joint it had such effect that we were not able to have a proper conversation anymore. We would forget what we were talking about in the middle of the sentence. I was asking stupid questions, talking bullshit. Also I was shaking because I felt cold and it was middle of the summer. He explained me that is normal for the first time.
Ok. This was an intro. Now interesting part comes
He was laying on one couch and I was laying on a couch across him. We were both relaxed and I really enjoyed every moment and felt so nice. At some point I noticed he was rubbing his dick and it was erected and looked very big. My first thought was, OMG, I thought he is a nice guy and he is not gonna try anything and now he is horny and gonna try something even I told him I am straight. Anyway, I was not concerned as he is really a nice person.
I don't know how we pull this topic out, but at some point we started to talk about poppers. I had no idea what is it so he explained me and asked me if I want to try. Didn't know what to expect after sniffing. First sniff, my heart started beating like crazy, I felt like I can't breath and jump down from the bed and started rolling on the floor because I didn't know how to control the feeling. After was over I was like, OMG, it's amazing and tried one more time.
Now, are you ready for the real story?
He started talking about sucking cock while on ecstasy and poppers. First time he said that I had a discrete laugh. Then, he said it again "I like sucking a cock while on E, it's the best feeling in the world". I asked what is the feeling like and started to think about him sucking me if he really wants. At that point, E really overwhelmed me in co-operation with poppers. I couldn't think clearly anymore and started to imagine that feeling. I was also horny as I didn't have sex for more than 2 weeks. At some point I had to go to the toilet then went to take a shower. I was thinking like this, if something is gonna happen I'd better be clean (I didn't take a shower after the party that day). Still I wasn't sure if I will do something with him or not. Just wanted to clear out my head under the shower.
And then, BOOM. Under the shower I felt even more overwhelmed. It was like the best feeling in the world. He asked me how is it and I said it's good, you should join me. I couldn't believe what I just said. I just invited a guy to take a shower with me together, NAKED. That means only one thing.
* * * Now I have to make a break and tell you one important thing before I continue with the story. One year before this happened, I was in a sex club and had a sex with a girl as other people as well. There were gay, lesbians, straight people... While I was fucking a girl, one guy approached me from behind and when my dick was outside her pussy while I was licking her boobs, he grabbed my dick and started wanking me. First time I pushed his hand immediately. He did it again. I was way busy playing with her boobs and he was jerking my dick very good. The feeling was nice so I let him do it for about 10 seconds then told him to stop. After that great feeling I started to be curious how is it to be with guys, jerk them off, suck them, etc. I heard about app grindr, installed it on my phone and made two encounters with random guys from that app. It was just blow and go. With both guys I was very shy and afraid to do it but after they started sucking me I felt more comfortable and I sucked them too and I liked it very much. Even after these two encounters, I still felt as straight. No doubt about that. I was afraid I might turn gay or mess up with my sexuality so firmly decided to stop doing this in the future. * * *
Letâs go back to the story. I invited him to join me under the shower and he came quickly. He started cuddling me and tried to kiss me but I refused. I can't kiss a guy. For me kissing is more personal and emotional. I can do it only with girls. He went down and started sucking me. I wasn't hard at that moment. Then he pushed my head to his penis. I was looking forward for it. He was not hard too and his dick was very small. I was kinda disappointed. WTF did I do. I came to someone's house, did all this things and realized that his dick is small. I finished the shower, went outside the bathrrom and started feeling very bad and I apologized to him. Btw. he is black. Not completely black, let's say 80%. I thought he must have a big dick plus I saw something big inside his underwear 10 minutes ago when he was rubbing his cock on a couch. I should have asked him first about the size then do something. I like big dicks. Thatâs why. He told me that I don't have to worry and we don't have to continue if I don't feel comfortable. I told him "I am fine with it but I thought that you have a bigger dick". He replied, "but I have a big dick, 19 cm" and then he pulled out his dick out of his underwear and WOW, his dick was really big and nice looking. I was amazed and couldn't get off my eyes out of his dick. Without thinking I grabbed his cock and put it in my mouth. The feeling was amazing. The best feeling in the world. He gave me more poppers and I became even more horny and tried to deep throat him. Of course I couldn't do it at that time, but I went like 70% even his dick was really big and thick. I stopped sucking him for awhile and said, "It's so beautiful, I donât wanna suck you, I just want to admire your dick and look at it". Seriously, I couldn't suck him, I just wanted to stare at his amazing dick and admire it. I was cuddling with his dick, kissing the head, licking and the feeling was amazing. Later on I continued sucking him and he sucked me then we went to his room and played until 5 in the morning.
I was not sure about this but because I was horny as hell, I told him to come in my mouth at the end. He came like crazy and my mouth was full of his sperm. It was warm and the taste was ok but I didnât swallow. I spitted it out.
The story is not over yet. The next day we repeated everything except E. It was nice again. Since then one year has passed. Meanwhile I was thinking about sucking him many times. I couldnât forget that good feeling of sucking his dick. He said he wants to go one step further and kiss each other next time. I told him I canât do that with a guy and he understood. We stayed in contact all the time and I visited him again last summer.
First night, even I took E again, I felt uncomfortable and was shy again. I was not sure about doing it again even I really wanted to. I guess I just panicked or was nervous. It has passed 40 minutes since I took E and didnât feel very horny. Just a little bit. Then we rolled a joint, smoked and BOOM, I became extremey horny immediately because joint increases the effect of E and you become hornier. Again same thing happened. I just wanted to admire his cock, cuddle with it and kiss it gently. I sucked him very good a bit later. One more thing to add. While I am on E I have an urge to tell him some of my sexual stories from the past as well as some sexual secrets I didnât tell anyone. I guess itâs the effect of E. Also I canât stop talking. I was being honest with him, told him how much I liked what are we doing right now. Told him that I was thinking about his cock for a whole past year. Donât know why. I couldnât stop being honest and saying out loud all these things. He felt flattered about everything he heard from me and kissed me. I coudlnât refuse him. I kissed him back and it was nice. He has big soft lips. Great for kissing. We went to the bed and started kissing very passionate. I enjoyed every moment even I thought I wouldnât be able to. Then he started touching and licking my ass. That was a big NO for me but at that time I was way too horny on E to tell him to stop plus I enjoyed it. The next day when the E effect was gone, I didnât feel comfortable with kissing anymore.
I wanted to try a threesome with a guy so for the second night he invited his friend, a black guy from Africa with a big cock. I was very excited and, oh boy, it was a different level of everything. I sucked both guys at the same time while being high on weed and poppers. We all kissed each other, African guy sucked me and my friend was fucking me in my mouth at the same time, then, African guy and I sucked my friend at the same time and they both sucked me at the same time as well. Amazing feeling. Itâs a pity we didnât have E that night. I guess I would have enjoyed even more. At the end I sniffed poppers and African guy came in my mouth. I spitted out his sperm, then, while on poppers again, my friend came in my mouth. I have to admit that I like the feeling of someone coming in my mouth plus I know itâs a great feeling for the one who comes so I want him to have even more pleasure instead of coming in a napkin.
Third night we were alone and I told him I want to give him a blow job marathon. I wanted to suck him for 2 hours. I took whole pill of E, smoked joint and sniffed poppers. I ended up sucking him for 4 hours and deep throated him for about 90% of size of his cock. I still have to pactice that but I am sure next time I will do it. I am very slutty when I am sucking him. I like to be submissive (but I am dominant while having sex with girls). I like when he pulls my head towards his cock. Sometimes he wants to have sex on the bed but I prefer to stay in a living room on a couch because he is sitting on a couch and I am on my knees. While 4 hours session he got hungry and went to the kitchen to prepare food and eat. I couldnât wait for him to come back so I went there, got down on my knees and sucked him in the kitchen. Donât now why, but I feel much more horny while sucking on my knees. I like to be sumbissive and I like dominant guys who force me to suck them. I know itâs sounds like I am joking but thatâs the truth. I became so good at sucking dicks. He told me I am in his top 5 suckers that he ever had and he had more than 50. He said I suck better than many gay guys and I put more feelings into sucking. And I just started doing it
I plan to visit him again and stay even longer. I canât stop thinking about him. Not in a way that I love him, but in a passionate way that I want to have sex with him again. He is a nice person and a good friend and I feel very comfortable with him. I donât mind kissing him anymore. Actually I like it now. Since we met for the first time, we significally imporoved our relationship (not boyfriend relationship but as human beings). Canât stop thinking about what we are gonna do next time when we meet. I would like to try foursome next time possibly with black guys. I realized I like strong black guys with big dicks. Somehow they turn me on. I am caucassian btw. very tall, handsome and nice looking. Every night before I go to sleep I have sexual thoughts about me sucking him and having fun together. I even stopped masturbating on girls. I still do it but not so much like before.
Just want to point this thing out. I donât feel like I want to have sex with unnumerous number of guys. All my passion is oriented to him. I just want to have sex with him and his friends if possible. I like to try new things. On the other side, I want to fuck every hot girl I see. Thats what I donât understand. Why I want to have sex only with him and not with other guys.
So here is my question. What is going on with me? All my life I was 100% straight. I had 2 encounters with guys but that didnât turn me gay. After I met this guy I started to feel more passionate about having sex with him than with girls. I donât know whatâs next. I am afraid I might stop liking girls. What do you think? Is it because of E or something else? Did something similar happen to you?
I donât know why I enjoy sucking cock so much. Suddenly it became my passion even I never tried it since 2 years ago. I have a feeling that I could suck a cock every night. I donât know what I am gonna do about this one day when I get married with a girl (I hope)
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