Grief is bothering/affecting me?

[soulfulriver]

My condolences - I am very sorry to hear about your sister and I empathize with your current situation.

I have to say that grief isn't something that goes away easily - if ever. What I have learned about grief the hard way is that it doesn't really ever go away when you loved somebody but you DO get used to it and learn to live with it. 

The best tool I have learned to use is to remember that as long as I am here still so is a part of the person I am grieving for - because I loved them. The love doesn't die and it truly is a powerful force and it can help you heal and learn to cope with it - give it time.

Thank you @eastofeden

I really hope I will get better in the future.