A thing nightmares are made of..... not good

[zeon]

well at this young age at the moment im just sitting here writing out plans incase something happens like an illness etc so there is no dispute over things i am scared and dont know yet where im going but the sooner the day comes i am alone in the office alone at home and alone on christmas and birthday the sooner i can accept things and move on... The first year will kill me with working all hours i can do but i have to keep going i guess as im too proud to just give in