09-12-2012, 03:45 AM
None of those places and, especially not that one you hid your firearms from yourself to avoid. I know it's tempting, anything to escape, even for just a few hours. I wouldn't blame you if you did, but I think you're stronger than that and, from your post up there ^^, I'm right. 
Now don't go beating yourself up for coming close either - that only counts in horse shoes, hand grenades and government work and, last I checked relationships are none of the above.
It's all too easy to go back to familiar ground, even when we know it's a bad place to be, at least it's familiar and, we know the easy exit is there, even if it's the wrong exit. Lock those exits, as you are doing, you'll make it past them and, be stronger for it.
I know, you won't listen to this one but, I'm going to tell you anyway. Don't feel guilty or embarrassed about doing what you know is best for you in the long run. You're being more than generous in letting him stay as your roommate. That's more that I could do. If I had to look at my ex everyday, especially in the first week or two after we split. I don't know if I could let go of the anger and hurt.
Stay strong, it really will get better and easier and, remember "Footprints in the Sand." Your faith, even though it isn't mine anymore will get you through this.
Footprints in the Sand
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints,
is when I carried you."
Mary Stevenson
Now don't go beating yourself up for coming close either - that only counts in horse shoes, hand grenades and government work and, last I checked relationships are none of the above.
It's all too easy to go back to familiar ground, even when we know it's a bad place to be, at least it's familiar and, we know the easy exit is there, even if it's the wrong exit. Lock those exits, as you are doing, you'll make it past them and, be stronger for it.
I know, you won't listen to this one but, I'm going to tell you anyway. Don't feel guilty or embarrassed about doing what you know is best for you in the long run. You're being more than generous in letting him stay as your roommate. That's more that I could do. If I had to look at my ex everyday, especially in the first week or two after we split. I don't know if I could let go of the anger and hurt.
Stay strong, it really will get better and easier and, remember "Footprints in the Sand." Your faith, even though it isn't mine anymore will get you through this.
Footprints in the Sand
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints,
is when I carried you."
Mary Stevenson
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