Most gay men seem to have a perfect body ?

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I did go to several gay clubs around 14 years ago, Yes 14 years ago and at that time I had a friend who I went with.
But things went downhill from there as he died and I had an industrial accident and what with one thing or another I have been off work since then and walk with a limp.
The only good things I can see in myself is I am very caring and loving and considerate.
It is only within the last week that I had a major panic attack which I really thought that I was dying at the time and went to an emergency doctor who has given me anti anxiety tablets and it is since then that I have decided I have to pursue what I want in life and be happy for myself.
Being a very caring and considerate person I always think of others around me but I lack so much self confidence and low esteem but I am trying my upmost to go ahead and meet people now.
I am fed up being lonely and what with the low self confidence could be the reason for me starting this subject !