Ever contiplated suicide? Read my story....

[CodyH]

Things get really hard in life but you can't always look upon your past and dwell on it. You can only improve your life if you let it all go. I don't mean forget it as if it didn't happen but put it behind you and focus on yourself as of now. You sound like such a loving and amazing person. Who is willing to give everything to the one they love. I am similar in that aspect. But people like us gets trampled over all the time. Our love taken for granted. We are left with the question why? I gave you everything is it not enough? But you are enough. Its just that those other people don't see it and take it for granted. Like Bowyn said. Get back at them by picking up the pieces, standing tall, moving on, and loving yourself. They don't deserve all of your kindness and love. You will come out stronger.

The main thing I usually focus on when those types of thoughts rise up is the fact that these people that hurt me are not worth my pain. They are not worth dying over. My life is mine. I make of it what I want to make of it. I have come so far with all my ups and downs and school. My 21 years of living is not worth losing over some scum that cant appreciate me. I also focus on the people in my life that I have met. The people who love me and care for me. It would break my damn heart to see them hurt. To make them feel useless and helpless that they couldnt help me (not that I am conceited but thats the feeling I would feel if one of my friends decided to end their life). Focus on your future. Your happiness. Your hope. Things will get better but only if you decide to make it that way. Don't let these people win. If you need a friend you have many here. Stay strong. Show them who is the better and stronger guy!