10-09-2012, 01:28 PM
Zeon, because I can answer yes to your question, I did read your post.
I was moved by your courage to be able to put in into words the misery you have faced and the understanding of what it was doing to you.
I don't want to ramble, but I grew up with similar scars, and your experience at 18 y.o. mirrored mine.
You seem to be past those dark thoughts now, so I hope can realise that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem!
Low self esteem can be such a destructive force, and I hope you can work on letting go of that abused kid and focus on the guy you really are...someone who had survived, and is worthy of love.
And yeah, I'm repeating that last sentence to myself.
I hope members here can feel safe and comfortable to reach out if they are feeling at risk.
You are not alone, and others do care. x
I was moved by your courage to be able to put in into words the misery you have faced and the understanding of what it was doing to you.
I don't want to ramble, but I grew up with similar scars, and your experience at 18 y.o. mirrored mine.
You seem to be past those dark thoughts now, so I hope can realise that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem!
Quote:I feel im returning to my normal self......don't! This could turn into a cycle of destructive relationships or it can be a turning point for you, so you don't fall for the next bastard who shows you any sign of affection and you fall in an instant, because you crave some of the love and affection you were denied.
Low self esteem can be such a destructive force, and I hope you can work on letting go of that abused kid and focus on the guy you really are...someone who had survived, and is worthy of love.
And yeah, I'm repeating that last sentence to myself.
I hope members here can feel safe and comfortable to reach out if they are feeling at risk.
You are not alone, and others do care. x
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