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[Chris]

However despite all this I still couldn't say anything..

I might have a good idea for you. At the very beginnings of coming out I had similar problem so just found my own way to avoid it. Before a meeting, when I wanted to come out, I was texting a friend, saying that I had something very important to share. It was guaranteed that no one would let me go until I would confess everything. Sometimes it was even funny. One girlfriend took me for a few hours walk, trying to guess my secret. After many failures she asked:

- So you don’t like girls, do you?

I confirmed. Then she was like:

- Omg, so you like only me!- Trying to kiss me so I had to say immediately:

- No, I'm not into girls at all.

- So you're gay then! That's fine. I always wanted to have a gay friend, though! :biggrin: