02-07-2014, 07:16 AM
You stated you are a very self aware person, and that this is preventing you from achieving success. I would argue the opposite; being self aware enables you to understand your limitations, and in doing do, extend them. If you remember your multiple 'smarts' test if you took one in highschool, INTRApersonal intelligence would have been on that --- and your teacher may have commented that intrapersonal is perhaps the most valuable intelligence you can have.
So yes, you can understand and see how a standardized treatment might not work for you, and in a state where everything seems to fail, you just feel like the trend it going to continue. You have to be optimistic about your treatments though. It's easier to be cynical, but if you want change you have to fight for and believe in it. THIS MEANS TELLING YOUR DOCTOR YOUR CONCERNS. For example, if you find yourself thinking, "This isn't going to work for me because..." you need to talk about it, rather than just giving up on it.
More importantly in my opinion (and perhaps even a huge cause of the anxiety and need for the medication in the first place) is your home environment. Home is supposed to be a safe haven from the world -- which is obviously isn't for you. No wonder your stress is so high.
You have multiple pyschological problems, many as a result of the environment you are in. In an effort to reduce them you very much need to consider leaving your home life, fr your own good. I would advice you to apply for community housing if your community has it (your mother can apply with you and be put on this list), and if you feel your mental state is detrimental enough talk to your doctor about applying for disability. If your mother is going to come with you, sometimes a disability request will be expedited if one is terminally ill, such as your mother, so discuss that option with her. If you can, I sincerely believe that you should try to work, save, and move out. But I realize in many circumstances this is difficult, and depending on the severity of your issues it may not be possible. I'm not your doctor and can't make that call. I will say to realize that your brain is an organ like your heart, and that if it is not working neither are you.
Talk to your doctor about medical documentation and talk to your community centre. I do believe you are capable of achieving a normal, functioning, and productive life, but as long as you exist in this environment that's not happening -- and the psychological impact is very much going to affect you. You may find that when you leave your home environment that much of your anxiety may begin to alleviate itself, in addition to other issues you may be experiencing.
Once you are out of your unhealthy environment, look towards work, save for or go to school, get involved in your community. DO NOT STAY STAGNANT. Give back to your community through social events, volunteer work, a job, saving for or getting an education, and perhaps allow yourself to imagine that someday you will support yourself on your own and have left your unhealthy homelife behind. Again, it may be tempting to become complacent and lax, but you are capable and very much should reach towards a career...
All of this will take a lot of time and effort; and in your state (especially if you're depressed) you're going to want to lay in bed, and do nothing. But it's important that if you want your life to be different, that you make the difficult choices, that you are active in deciding where you're life is going, and you put yourself into an environment where you're healthy and can succeed. Remember, you're not a tree, if you don't like where you are, you can look at options that will enable you to move.
So yes, you can understand and see how a standardized treatment might not work for you, and in a state where everything seems to fail, you just feel like the trend it going to continue. You have to be optimistic about your treatments though. It's easier to be cynical, but if you want change you have to fight for and believe in it. THIS MEANS TELLING YOUR DOCTOR YOUR CONCERNS. For example, if you find yourself thinking, "This isn't going to work for me because..." you need to talk about it, rather than just giving up on it.
More importantly in my opinion (and perhaps even a huge cause of the anxiety and need for the medication in the first place) is your home environment. Home is supposed to be a safe haven from the world -- which is obviously isn't for you. No wonder your stress is so high.
You have multiple pyschological problems, many as a result of the environment you are in. In an effort to reduce them you very much need to consider leaving your home life, fr your own good. I would advice you to apply for community housing if your community has it (your mother can apply with you and be put on this list), and if you feel your mental state is detrimental enough talk to your doctor about applying for disability. If your mother is going to come with you, sometimes a disability request will be expedited if one is terminally ill, such as your mother, so discuss that option with her. If you can, I sincerely believe that you should try to work, save, and move out. But I realize in many circumstances this is difficult, and depending on the severity of your issues it may not be possible. I'm not your doctor and can't make that call. I will say to realize that your brain is an organ like your heart, and that if it is not working neither are you.
Talk to your doctor about medical documentation and talk to your community centre. I do believe you are capable of achieving a normal, functioning, and productive life, but as long as you exist in this environment that's not happening -- and the psychological impact is very much going to affect you. You may find that when you leave your home environment that much of your anxiety may begin to alleviate itself, in addition to other issues you may be experiencing.
Once you are out of your unhealthy environment, look towards work, save for or go to school, get involved in your community. DO NOT STAY STAGNANT. Give back to your community through social events, volunteer work, a job, saving for or getting an education, and perhaps allow yourself to imagine that someday you will support yourself on your own and have left your unhealthy homelife behind. Again, it may be tempting to become complacent and lax, but you are capable and very much should reach towards a career...
All of this will take a lot of time and effort; and in your state (especially if you're depressed) you're going to want to lay in bed, and do nothing. But it's important that if you want your life to be different, that you make the difficult choices, that you are active in deciding where you're life is going, and you put yourself into an environment where you're healthy and can succeed. Remember, you're not a tree, if you don't like where you are, you can look at options that will enable you to move.
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