this is how i feel

[bilkiba]

I also live in a "redneckish" town (although that's probably an understatement here). Getting to a bigger city can help a lot, especially one that is friendly and open. Just visiting the one where my partner lives made pretty much all of my stress and sorrow go away for a while--and I was very similar to what you've described before hand.

So, yeah, get out of there, and try to make an effort to talk to people if you can. You never know when you'll strike gold.