Wanna share your story of your first love?

[Keith]

My first love experience was at my 17, too. And similarly i loved a straight guy. It`s in Senior high school. Honestly it was not loving at the first sight. I did not see anything charming about him at first. But after he became my deskmate, i felt something different about him. When he played basketball, when he was naked, when he taught me some knowledge, when he talked everything with me, I felt that he was the best guy in the world. We were close deskmates and we even chatted secretly at classes. We took care of each other. I always prepared some bottles of water under his desk so that he can drink immediately after basketball. And sometimes i bought dinner for him because he gave up dinner time for basketball[we did not have much free time at school.]. He was so smart. He was good at chemistry, math, physic, and i was good at english. We did many things together. Guess what, I could not even do my exercise without him besides me. When he was there, i felt so calm and good.
I told him that i liked him. But he was straight and he still is. He told me that he did not want me to be gay. Anyway he did not hate me for being gay.
After graduation we went to different colleges. And i hardly contacted him. I thought it`s better to let it go. Actually i really felt bad in the first year. I missed him so much that many times i wanted to call him but i could not. Now I can not even remember his face clearly. Time cures everything.