Wanna share your story of your first love?

[Wardo94]

I only had three occasions where I felt like I "fell in love". And out of those, one was real, now that I have grown older and realized and it was only an immature love. My first one was with a straight guy. We met on Xbox and I was very young. I was maybe 14 or older. As soon as we started talking and hanging out, we became instant best friends. We got closer and closer as time went on. At some point, I started getting feelings for him, from which I didn't tell him at first since he was straight. But then I eventually did, and I can't remember if he reacted to it Wel or not, but at some point, he got feelings for me as well. Which I was surprised. From there, I though I turned him gay/bi and I felt like we were both deeply in love. We spoke about marriage and having kids. He lived in Maryland, and me in New York, so we got pillows to cuddle with at night, and pretended it was one another. I know, weird, but that was our way of showing our "love". We messed around and everything. At some point, we were planning to meet up with eachother. His mom and dad were fine with it, and by then, they trusted me enough since we knew eachother for so many years. As time went on from there, he changed. He started getting distant and eventually told me that he was just really curious and on the side of liking guys. What got me really hurt was that he was acting like we didn't have anything. As if we had a fling or something. And he became a major, major douche and was back to his lady macking ways. I honestly don't know if that or my second time falling in love was worse for me. But overall, they were both hard on me. Now looking back at it, it wasn't real and we never really had anything going on. I was immature and didn't know what real love is. And I may not know now either, but I have a better understanding of it, thanks to those two instances of falling for those guys. I really did learn a lot from that.