I dont understand why I feel this way.

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I also suspect he might have had a BF all along..and the person you fell in love with might not even be real...as in..he isn't the man you think he is.

I have had the chest hurting thing...and the sick to my stomach thing....over a guy...and I thought I was gonna die (seriously)...and then...it went away....it always does eventually The important part...when it does go away...give yourself a clear look at where you were....and take a moment to be grateful that you dodged a bullet....

He wasn't cheating on his BF because there was anything wrong with his BF..he was cheating on him because he lacks character...and he is a liar. You could have been that BF...YIKES...would you really have wanted to be his boyfriend?...knowing how he treats them?

You said your first relationship broke up because the guy was neglectful and treated you like you didn't matter. Connect the dots...this other guy is MUCH WORSE! If his BF knew what he was doing ....how do you think he would feel? Be glad you aren't in his shoes...

The cold and distant thing....you were his dirty little secret....and that was something he was supposed to be in charge of. I betcha he has alot of other dirty little secrets....other guys that shouldn't text him first and expect a response..unless he is in the mood and makes the first move....