10-07-2015, 04:44 AM
You know, anocxu, there's something to be said about saying a lot within very little words. That's definitely how I would sum up your last post. I think you hit on a bunch of really important points all at once.
I'm definitely shy and somewhat awkward with him. I'm not sure if I'm uncomfortable or just reserved, either way I worry about how I say things or what I say around him. And it's not because he's ridiculed or chastised me in the past, if anything he's always really supportive of what I say or how I feel. The only thing that's ever bothered him is that I try to keep to myself too much or don't let him in when I'm trying to process things/work through something.
I've always been someone who is stubborn or is reluctant to ask for help. I think my wanting books is a form of self help but it's probably not the best course of action. There's always another side to the relationship and I should be turning to him instead of trying to change how things are on my own, even if the issue is me.
I'm definitely shy and somewhat awkward with him. I'm not sure if I'm uncomfortable or just reserved, either way I worry about how I say things or what I say around him. And it's not because he's ridiculed or chastised me in the past, if anything he's always really supportive of what I say or how I feel. The only thing that's ever bothered him is that I try to keep to myself too much or don't let him in when I'm trying to process things/work through something.
I've always been someone who is stubborn or is reluctant to ask for help. I think my wanting books is a form of self help but it's probably not the best course of action. There's always another side to the relationship and I should be turning to him instead of trying to change how things are on my own, even if the issue is me.