10-08-2015, 05:26 PM
Cobalt Wrote:You know, anocxu, there's something to be said about saying a lot within very little words. That's definitely how I would sum up your last post. I think you hit on a bunch of really important points all at once.Sometimes life throws us another human being that promotes so much positivity.. we push for change ..
I'm definitely shy and somewhat awkward with him. I'm not sure if I'm uncomfortable or just reserved, either way I worry about how I say things or what I say around him. And it's not because he's ridiculed or chastised me in the past, if anything he's always really supportive of what I say or how I feel. The only thing that's ever bothered him is that I try to keep to myself too much or don't let him in when I'm trying to process things/work through something.
I've always been someone who is stubborn or is reluctant to ask for help. I think my wanting books is a form of self help but it's probably not the best course of action. There's always another side to the relationship and I should be turning to him instead of trying to change how things are on my own, even if the issue is me.
I guess if you two were to sit , talk and go 'Soul to Soul' you could uncover so many things about each other..including the reason you show so much reverence to your partner that it's preventing you from letting loose..
I'm honestly thinking he should serve you a light roofie collada and ask you everything he ever wanted to know...
Kidding...
Kinda..
Hehe
:-P