Sexuality and Settling Down

[InbetweenDreams]

[MENTION=23180]axle2152[/MENTION], I actually thought about suggesting that you tink about trading in that expensive car for something more economical. whatever, PLEASE do not go down the road at 1000 MPH. We would like to keep you around!

Ever thought that your father may have great deal of empathy and that he gets angry because he is so frustrated over your mother's health and other things. It can happen.

About risk deficiency: I used to ski a bit. We have this one slope nearby that is pretty much straight down and fast. It terrified me. All I could do was fall down the damned thing. Then one very wintry day my best friend took me up there. Now I have a nice pair of skis that are 185 in length and moderate in design. His were racing skis that are 210's. We each took two hits of acid and found ourselves at the top of the slope. I knew I was gonna die. Well, I didn't. I ended up not only staying upright but roaring past Mr. 210's all the way to the bottom. Foolish? Yes. ABSOLUTELY GLORIOUS!! You betcha. Whether or not I would do it again is open to debate but I can say that casting aside my fear of risk at that moment was not a mistake and that I learned a lot. [God, I loved that man. He died young from disease. I mourn daily.]

I do plan on trading the car in but I won't be able to do that until I pay on it some more...no sense in rolling over debt into more debt, it would only make owning a less expensive car more expensive. These things lose so much value takes at least 2 years to hopefully break even.

My dad is another subject. I'll send you a PM, it is complicated, it really is. I'm not saying he doesn't care but frustration is certainly a problem for him and he has never in my 30 years been able to relax at all.

About the risk deficiency are you saying that because of that I am taking on things I shouldn't or that I'm not taking enough risks in life in general...or both...?