I think my wanting to see a man naked has made me gay

[LJay]

Well, @axle, one well-touted theory has to do with having a dominant mother and a recessive father. If anything, I suppose I might fit there, except that Dad was certainly assertive when he wished and he and my mother tended to discuss major decisions about us kids when crises arose. They were a team. I also had traditional family structure with two sets of grandparents, an aunt and uncle and cousins and extended family that visited and were gossiped about a lot. It really was not too far from Leave it to Beaver or Ozzie and Harriet. (Except that I made the cookies.) I was just never particularly curious about seeing any of this crowd naked. I was bashful in gym showers and though I saw plenty of naked there the fear of being exposed as gay haunted me constantly. I new who I was and that it was not acceptable to my peers as a group. There may have been individuals who would have been tolerant but I never knew of them. What I am getting at is that I never made any causal connection for my sexuality between seeing or not seeing naked males. I knew the way I was and I picked up on social cues very quickly that said I would do well to keep my mouth shut about it.

End of rant.
It is midnight and I have had interactions with two doctors today and they have left me very tired.