I think my wanting to see a man naked has made me gay

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I have very similar situation to Jim - I saw nude males many times, however I fantasize other males being naked at a very young age.

I start suspecting myself being gay at a really young age - probably around 10 as I enjoyed those little boys' "touching" games and my fantasies on them.

But I didn't confirm that right away because many sources say that "you may be just curious in the teenage phase" etc. So I wait. Until after watching several porns that I realize what turns me on was always the male but not the female. In fact, thinking about and watching the naked woman turns me way off so I am certain at that point.

After that, looking back to my childhood's behavior and way of thinking, I am quite sure I was born this way.

But there is one thing I think worth addressing - I have found myself, unconsciously, using female as a model to behave. ie when I am reacting to people, my natural behavior was learnt from the females that I've seen before, whether people around me or from TV etc.

As soon as I have found out this, I chose to consciously stop doing this. Because I don't want myself to behave too feminine as I find myself being attracted to non-extreme feminine guys. I want myself to be one of those people that I find attractive too.

But as for why I would unconsciously choose a female as my role model in the first place, I have no idea. It just comes naturally.

I don't know if this addresses your doubts but it could be a reference for you.