Im not sure if its ok to get a girlfriend

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2. a) My love with my friend was more like a brotherly love, you've never had a friend that you really loved?

I connect with men very strongly. What I feel for them is intense and deep. And yes, of course I also love my friends in a way. Even so, with all that intensity I feel for men, I can't say that I have been in love with any of my friends. I care about my friends, but no, I have not been in love with them. In love, I've only been with guys from whom I want more intimate things that friendship.

It does not mean I can't be in love and settle for friendship if the guy is straight/unavailable, and I have done it. But ideally I'd still want more from such guys.

The feelings you described for your friend, that's is more than friendship.

b) Do that many heterosexual men have sex with other men? Im really curious I never heard that before.

I may have exaggerated on that one. Point was, a lot more than just the homosexual population would be considered homosexual in that case. I should have worded myself more correctly.

No-one's ever done any studies that weren't biased in one way or another (the most famous study on it, that of Kinsey's, was biased).

3. You've got me on this one. Maybe I do have some sugar in my tank, and I know I can be a little prissy sometimes. But how can I get in touch with myself when the only one I can truly talk to without word possibly getting out is my dog.

I don't think you need another person to get in touch with yourself. You need to be able to do self-reflection and think about why it is you want the things you do, and who you are as a person. That usually means you need to be able to put yourself into different contexts and be able to analyze your own motivations and behavior.