11-19-2016, 05:58 AM
Listen Im not saying Im 100% sure about who I am either way we go. What I am saying is that for the most part I really like being with a woman with the exception of the sex which is tolerable.
I like the idea of having a wife and a little house and children and I could go to work my wife could take care of my house. Around the holidays we could do stupid stuff like all families do such as taking your children to the pumpkin patch. And people would say what a beautiful couple we make. Its normal, its acceptable, and its what people expect. Haven't any of you guys ever wanted that?
The same way that little girls imagine their weddings, when I was a kid this is how I thought it would be for me. Maybe I am gay or gayish but I just want what everybody else has. Can you guys see where Im coming from? I may have some personal issues regarding how I identify myself, but I have alot of other issues too. I have a violent streak and a bad temper, I dont like being touched in public. I dont even know how to cry, not since I was real little. I dont even talk about my feelings, Ive written stuff here that I would never talk about with anybody.
All Im saying is that my orientation may be the least of my issues, and if I had somebody like a girlfriend just to talk to about some of this stuff I'd feel alot better, that to me would be more fulfilling than any man that Ive ever known.
And this is the last thing about this, in many places homosexuality is still seen as a weakness and I hate more than anything else to be seen as weak or soft that why I dont let people hug me in public it makes me look soft. I spent my childhood getting into fist fights with everybody just so they would think I was a tough kid, I dont want to throw all that away know. You know gays are tough and so do I, alot of ancient warriors were gay we know this. But alot of people still see just see a weak faggot, its a shame but it is what it is.
I just want you guys to see where Im coming from.
I like the idea of having a wife and a little house and children and I could go to work my wife could take care of my house. Around the holidays we could do stupid stuff like all families do such as taking your children to the pumpkin patch. And people would say what a beautiful couple we make. Its normal, its acceptable, and its what people expect. Haven't any of you guys ever wanted that?
The same way that little girls imagine their weddings, when I was a kid this is how I thought it would be for me. Maybe I am gay or gayish but I just want what everybody else has. Can you guys see where Im coming from? I may have some personal issues regarding how I identify myself, but I have alot of other issues too. I have a violent streak and a bad temper, I dont like being touched in public. I dont even know how to cry, not since I was real little. I dont even talk about my feelings, Ive written stuff here that I would never talk about with anybody.
All Im saying is that my orientation may be the least of my issues, and if I had somebody like a girlfriend just to talk to about some of this stuff I'd feel alot better, that to me would be more fulfilling than any man that Ive ever known.
And this is the last thing about this, in many places homosexuality is still seen as a weakness and I hate more than anything else to be seen as weak or soft that why I dont let people hug me in public it makes me look soft. I spent my childhood getting into fist fights with everybody just so they would think I was a tough kid, I dont want to throw all that away know. You know gays are tough and so do I, alot of ancient warriors were gay we know this. But alot of people still see just see a weak faggot, its a shame but it is what it is.
I just want you guys to see where Im coming from.
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