Im not sure if its ok to get a girlfriend

[Darius]

Thanks for sharing that, Doc. Childhood cruelty can often bring damage into adulthood.
You can't anticipate every conceivable probable, however. It's possible you could marry a woman and have a child and he got picked on for being small, too. It wouldn't be your sexuality that did it.
You can't live tomorrow today.
The Army experience shows that you are a different person in the right environment....the kind of person others like and you liked yourself. You can get better and will if you are determined to.