Is my best friend gay

[Darius]

Hi Jerseyboy. You're in love with your friend and you might be projecting your sexuality on him. You may not be. You don't know and neither do we. The first step might be to tell him you are gay. Even if he suspects you are gay and still hangs out with you is a great thing. He sees you as your friend and loves you unconditionally. By telling him you are gay, it opens up the opportunity for conversation, something you seriously need with him. Even if he is straight, he probably doesn't care that you aren't.
You need to stop your misery right now and share this with him.